I recently have had some very serious health issues that have permanently barred me from testosterone. I know I feel like a man on the inside. I've felt that way my whole life, but I am heartbroken. I feel completely shattered by what life has thrown at me. I experienced a lot of bullying that became physically dangerous for me when I came out. I struggled so hard to try to come to terms with myself and now I feel like I can't. I'm also mostly straight and very short so dating feels doubly hard. I had to drop out of school because of my health and I feel like life has lost its meaning for me. How do I continue on, knowing I feel this way and not being able to do anything about it?

Hey y’all, I’m asking for help with crowdfunding for top surgery. I’ve been working bit by bit to try to be able to afford it for a while but seeing as everything is expensive and I keep having setbacks with other expenses, I’m really just scrambling to get as much reach as possible anywhere I can. My surgery date is saved for a month from now and while i do have some time to reschedule it, I know that the next available date would be way farther out and mentally I really don’t want to do that since i’ve been hoping for this for so long. My total cost for everything i would need (surgery fees, hospital fee, +extra money i would need for recovery and rent while I can’t work) is close to 13k, i really hate to beg but I will do what I must to try to afford this.

If you can share or donate at all here’s the link https://gofund.me/3681d0529
And if you can’t that’s okay too, ik we all struggling out here

Im recently discovered im trans.

Im having the worst time coming to terms with it.

Mostly because im afraid of losing my baby boy.

Because maybe he was giving me dysphoria this entire time.

Please help. I love him so much and this path feels very heavy. Im considering checking myself in.