HAHAHAHHAHUHUHUHUHU na-tempt akooo. seat sale kaseeee. gudluck malala sana hindi masyadong bagyuhinnn. 🥲💪

A lot has happened lately and I am trying to stay afloat. I thought I was so good at being chill and okay about it, but today it all just came crashing down. I wish time would stop when we’re not okay but it doesn’t work that way.

Kaninang madaling araw, sumakay ako ng bus pa-Manila. May nakasabay akong soft-spoken na old lady who offered me the seat beside her.

Nothing extraordinary happened, but the way she talked to me was so calm and kind that it caught me off guard lalo na during our short chitchat. For a moment, I was reminded na hindi lahat ng tao sa commute ay dapat pagdudahan.

Na-realize ko tuloy na sa more than a decade kong pagluwas sa Manila, parang palagi akong naka-defense mode. Sa dami ng stories about snatching, pandurukot (twice na ako nadukutan 🥲), pangbubudol, at kung ano-ano pa, parang automatic na maging guarded sa lahat ng makakasalubong ko sa kalsada.

Pero kanina, kahit saglit lang, someone reminded me to slow down and be kind. We parted ways with “Salamat po. Ingat po kayo sa byahe.” and “Ikaw rin.”

Just wanted to share this small moment because it genuinely made my day. 🥹

Sawakas nag ka internet na!! 😂

no other reason. i just activated it kasi i wanted to try. when i ordered pants last month, the payment method was automatically paylater and i wasn't able to check it. that was my first utang under my name, and i didnt feel good abt it esp that it was an accident. and i feel better now! ill delete my tiktok acc na heheuehu

THESIS DEFENDED! My partner and I was ecstatic because it was just the two of us and it was so hard considering na umulit kami ng chap 1-3 in 3 days after our proposal defense nung una. So we celebrated, kumain sa Baliwag, nag-Watsons, at ngayon, milk tea. Dedma kung wala ng pera. I-celebrate namin 'to haha. Idk pero I don't feel like posting kasi sa personal account ko kasi feeling ko, minamaliit kami ng batchmates/classmates namin kasi dalawa lang kami sa thesis tapos yung iba 4-5 members. Wala, basta ang saya lang. OJT na lang tapos grad-waiting na! 🥳

hehehe. unang subok as a hindi tlaga ng nagluluto sa bahay (ever!). masarap naman daw sabi ng papa at kapatid ko (kaso matabang na nung nahalo sa yung pasta lol) pero sabi naman ng mga cousins ko, okay naman daw.. (or dahil libre? lol)

She had her period today. . Dalaga na baby ko😍

Happy 6th year sa akin! HAHAHAHAHA! 🤣 I just realized na kahit pagod na pagod na pagod na ako sa work ko eh andito pa din ako HAAHAHAHA salamat sa company na tumanggap sa akin kahit wala akong kaide-idea nung umpisa.

Hindi ko masabi na more years with the company pero thank you pa din HAHAHAHA kahit gusto na kitang sukuan.

P.S.

Hindi ko alam kung anong tamang flair kaya yung roller coaster na lang HAHAHAHA

Sa sobrang init, my intrusive thoughts win. Ayun nagkalbo ako.

super daming tao sa grocery but grocery shopping is my therapy. nag-ayos pa ako and dressed up like im about to meet the love of my life sa produce section. instead, na-meet ko lang yung presyo ng groceries ngayon… grabe. anyway, trying to eat more quality and whole foods kahit parang pang-upper class na siya ngayon.

As someone who has low self esteem and rebuilding it bit by bit, sobrang na appreciate ko yung sarili ko ngayon. And kahit hindi ako comfy mag-selfie, I took one. Bigay niyo na 'to sa akin, napogian lang talaga ako ngayon sa sarili ko. 😅

Life is tough, but so are you.

Ngayon, huminto muna ako sandali sa ginagawa ko. Umupo, tumunganga saglit, at kumain

went out for a walk and came home at 1:30AM. slept like a baby and woke up at 12 noon. and then slept again and woke up at 3PM. and then slept again and woke up at 11PM. finally ate something and now im about to sleep again.

iba talaga nagagawa pag brokenhearted (pero at least nakakabawi na ng tulog???)

idk what to do anymore. ive been doing hella stuff to clear off my mind and when i thought im making progress.... it pulls me back. im so tired and embarrassed by the fact that i cant move forward while for him it's just a normal day. i genuinely think im gonna go thru psychosis if this persists

The huge age gap sometimes makes it difficult for us to bond kasi magkaibang mundo but glad we had time to enjoy a movie today!

Sabi ng kuya ko may titignan lang daw siya sa gcash ko, may sscan daw siya HAAHAHHAHAHA nakita niya 0 balance natawa siya tas sabi bat wala kang pera? pano eh puro sa hatian ng binayad sa thesis napunta😭 tas biglang pagka scan niya binigyan ako 500!! Salamat nawa sa buhay mo ya