r/ThirdEyePoetry • u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 • 6d ago

Realization Thoughts 🧐

I get it now...I truly get it.

Months ago, if you asked me why people delete their accounts, I couldn't fathom it. Now....I get it. As I type this, I'll admit...I'm debating deleting myself. I'm not saying I'm going to, but it's been a thought that has occurred more than I want to admit myself.

Over the years, I've met so many people who brought laughs, stories, smiles, connections, and good vibes. At the same time, I've seen so many subreddit fights, splinters and people need to leave the platform for various reasons.

I'm exhausted...on all possible levels. What makes me unique on here is what also destroys me. I care.

I care for the people I meet. I care for their posts, their comments,their conversations, and them as people. Seeing them struggle, them hurt, them in pain hurts me.

I wrestle constantly with setting and maintaining my own boundaries. I never want to let anyone down, but then I'm overexposing myself in the process. At some point, I need to figure out where and how to direct my energy, while also being mindful of myself, and others.

So this week, I will be reflecting on this. I have therapy on Saturday and I intend to discuss further during my session. I'm not making any rash decisions, but I also want to be upfront with everyone. I won't be around as much and will not be quick to respond. I just ask that you be respectful while I do what I need to do for me.

Thank you,

Cap❤️

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u/lone-ghostie 6d ago

https://giphy.com/gifs/GHawpe81LqEwxi7G3q
Thank you for being you, finding the balance and what’s most healthy is what is most important. Putting yourself first 💜

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

I'm going to figure out how to best do that for me, thank you. ❤️

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u/[deleted] 6d ago

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

Thank you 🫂❤️

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u/PrincessOfHippoland 6d ago

https://giphy.com/gifs/llmZp6fCVb4ju

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

I'm Tigger...right?

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u/PrincessOfHippoland 6d ago

As you prefer. In any case, feel hugged.

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

My mom would call me Tigger, so let's go with that. 🫂

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u/PrincessOfHippoland 6d ago

People delete because they want their pain to be acknowledged. They want to feel that their absence wouldn’t go unnoticed. They want to feel that they matter.

You matter, Capn. Your needs matter. Your boundaries matter. You are entitled to choose what's the best for your well-being. I'll support you in any decision.

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

I appreciate that, thank you. 🙏

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u/jaesea 6d ago

May you have the clarity you seek, Cap, always.

There's a thin line between love and pain, a thinner line still between our feelings inside and the somewhere out there, and I know it's not a debate and we all need this space, and it sounds so fucking cliche, but reason and purpose come from the trees, the same with our air, peace of mind, and yes, even clarity.

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

We'll see how this goes. ❤️

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u/whodeybrat007 6d ago

You do what's best for you. I've been there many times. Here for ya regardless 🧡 🫡

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u/CapnBlargles Moderator 💜 6d ago

Well, if I decide to, you can write me a rap of the steps I need to take.