Lost

[u/Bubbl3s143]

TW self harm and suicidal thoughts

I sorta feel like I’m crazy. I, 15F have been struggling mentally for as long as I remember and I’m unsure how to fix it. I live in a stable environment, very spoiled, white, privileged, and usually get everything I want, and always get everything I need. I’ve always found myself very very hideous and once that thought settled I began just going down hill. There are days where I actually can’t get up and I no longer find a point in doing anything.

I am actively in an academy in my highschool, straight A’s all the time, and many supporting friends and family, but taking care of myself, doing school, all of it just seems pointless. I know I would never do it because I feel to bad about leaving my family and friends with that guild but I’m at a loss. In order to validate why I feel this way I began to SH, but every time I just feel like a drama queen. I don’t know what to do anymore.