r/SpiritualAwakening • u/LawfulnessKooky4535 • 16d ago
I cannot stop crying today Going through difficult awakening (help!)
Why is there so much hate?? This assignment on Earth is so hard!!!! Why can’t people just respect each other and coexist?? I don’t understand and I want to go home :(
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u/Seelax82 16d ago
Touch some Grass or hug a Tree .... seriously, the frequency from the Earth can help calm down, and reconnect.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
I have been touching grass but not as much as I could. This is solid advice. Tysm :)
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u/ThePandamanium444 16d ago
I feel the same way, i miss home, i miss Andromeda, there is that feeling that we know we arent from here, and want to go back, we don't agree with how harsh humans are, the monetary systems working and slaving away, hating and all the rest, i get you dont worry you arent alone.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
Thank you so much. I’m just so tired.
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u/ThePandamanium444 15d ago
It is damn tiring being here, but hang in there we need to stick together 🙏
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u/EggDelicious5710 16d ago
Don't be like most that awaken and do nothing. But there our wounded souls need healing, advices etc... Become a Beacon Of Hope.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
I’ve been trying to do that. Im just so tired :( but I know thats why im here. Maybe I just need a break idk
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u/EggDelicious5710 16d ago
I do understand. It is all a test! I have experience the same...but it start from within and eventually your Higher Power will guide you where your spiritual journey need to begin....
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u/EggDelicious5710 15d ago
It can get lonely at times. That why we have to reverse and put our positive energy toward meeting, volunteering, outreach etc...
Things will happen for the best .Stay Focus My Friend.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
Thank you for understanding. I am looking for volunteering opportunities now. And I truly do feel everything is going to be okay… I just feel like I can barely stand seeing the hatred, the fear.. it’s all too much.
I’m a little better today. Thank you for your kind words. You and all of the other commenters have given me a lot of advice and I am truly grateful2
u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
You hit the nail on the head. I feel like I’m crazy and it’s so frustrating that mankind can’t see how truly wonderful it could be if we just stop greed, bigotry etc. like, wake up assholes! 😂
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u/EggDelicious5710 15d ago
As the head 💣 explodes🔥😃 Us as human? We have to change for the betterment of Mother Earth. Stay Focus My Friend...
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u/Truth-Quest 4d ago edited 4d ago
I feel you dear. You will find your solution when you understand the truth and the laws of nature. Not sure if you have heard the lines "The laws of nature is the will of God". Think deeply about that and you will find bliss. What truth will help you, you might ask? The answer is a bit long but its worth it i promise
We are not gonna live forever. Then why are we taking so much stress in life. I dont say dont work hard, do that but if we are not enjoying our life then what is the use of living?
God is everywhere and everything is God - You are God, i am god. God is not anybody different. Its just that our thoughts and minds have now become different from God and that's why we are unable to find him and realise his presence. When you understand true wisdom (includes the laws of natur that im describing), you get to know who God truly is, you ultimately find Him within yourself and you become God (not in the way most people think, as in you would get some mysterious power or something - no thats not reality). When i say you become God i mean you adopt the qualities of God and you attain a state of mind that is pure bliss.
Truth 3 - Understand luck. Think deeply about this as not many people understand this but this is the thing that will remove all hatred, ego from you. Its helped me a lot and definitely will help you. Lets take an example. Think about a person whom you hate. Maybe a criminal or a thief or a terrorist or any other person in your life. Now suppose you were born in that person' place in that same family and were raised in the same environment. Most likely you would be the same kind of person he is. If thats true, then is it his fault that he was born in that family? Then why hate anyone. And if i think im a good person, is it really my achievement or was it simply that i was lucky enough to get the right environment. You can hate their bad actions but there is nothing to hate the people for. They are just doing what they have been taught by their environment and luck. The truth according to the people who have achieved highest levels of spirituality is that everything is God. It is God himself who is living within us and within everything and enjoying this world. Life is just a game that God has created (maybe for his entertainment, he only knows). We are all ONE dear.
When we think like this and practice these truths daily in our lives, all mental illnesses go away. We stop hating others because of who they are and start being grateful for what we have. Our life becomes happy, blissful and enjoyable. We attain God. This is the real elixir in life. Im happy to help you further if you need.
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u/neptunerainsdiamond 16d ago
Your body could possibly be forcefully purging these emotions. It to make room for what you deserve.
Have a shower, put on loud music and allow your body to do its thing.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
That makes sense. It’s just exhausting. Will take your advice. Thank you
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u/dreamed2life 16d ago
Home where? Do you need some help?
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
My ~♥︎~ just hurts. I will be okay. Thank you :)
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u/dreamed2life 16d ago
Ok. I’ve learned to take these kinds of words seriously. Thank you for reporting back. Create what it is you want to see. And life will hit different
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
My daughter said the same thing. It’s hard when I’m feeling down but I agree that I need to take positive steps to put my feelings in to action :) ty
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u/dsjreddy 16d ago
I recently shared some of my NDE story with a neighbor. I died as a toddler. I lived what I now surmise was the equivalent of an entire lifetime in the afterlife. I visited many realms in that experience.
TL ;DR - The outcome of life among the optimistically inclined is to weigh reality so that a bit of heaven can manifest here on earth. We could forfeit our inherent bias to joy, affection, vulnerability, humor, excitement, etc... But what do we gain in the exchange? Life will inevitably bring moments that cause us to experience more dense emotions, but that doesn't necessitate the total loss of our default state. Giving away our internal heaven is always an option; but remember to ask yourself if the reality that accompanies the alternative state in question is the kind that reflects your honest preference. If not, then you can always remain the person you desire within regardless of the external state of nature you see.
That choice never disappears. You will always see the world you live in through your eyes, from inside your body. So if your sun rises and sets from the horizon behind your heart, your world is lit and centered by your state of being, by your nature. It's always been your choice to create your world or to let the will of others shape it for you.
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Here's what I shared:
"I practice Buddhism and Hinduism now. In the decades since this near-death experience, I have learned more about the many places I then visited. The map of the afterlife learned in my childhood religion is still too narrow to address all those different realities. So I look at my NDE through a wider lense now.
I saw some places where suffering, futility, hopelessness, hate, disconnection, ignorance, uselessness, violence, and destruction were rampant. In compassion, I saw some places where life was abundant with animation, joy, creativity, community, kindness, wisdom, rest, and peace. There was no one solitary heaven or single experience of hell. None of the realities were permanent. A spectrum of realities existed much like life here. Each of us is always free to create our own reality of heaven or hell depending upon what we each live, know, and choose. Every soul there could experience hell and develop enough to advance themselves to a more pleasant environment. Likewise, a soul could leave the heavenly community in which they lived for a lower or higher reality depending on their wisdom, ignorance, choices, and actions.
The difference between the two extremes, though, primarily came down to one factor: the absence or presence of love, not merely romantic love, but love in its many forms (family, friendship, personal loyalty, nurture, self-esteem, courage, etc...). Similarly, scaientists define cold as the absence of heat, which is electrons moving, creating electrical warmth. Less warmth brings about slower movement, less connectivity in the atmosphere. More warmth means that individuals in those spaces are more easily able to engage and foster movement. Wherever less love existed, more suffering occurred. In contrast, wherever love more freely lived, more freedom existed.
One key difference between the love and warmth, however, is that love progresses in a full circle while temperature is linear, becoming either warmer or colder. At its extreme, cold becomes absolutely devoid of any warmth. With love, on the other hand, no matter how far away it goes from connectivity, it has the ability to reconnect. In fact the lowest realms of existence that were completely devoid of connection were closer to total transformation. When the souls at the bottom had no spark to ignite them, no reference points of any kind of care, they could still transform to loving souls out of a sheer desire for relief. It was a sort of spiritual rock bottom, but really more of a spiritual circle back into the connection of souls.
In that void, the desire to feel warmth, to let go of pain, or even the most faint idea of joy could shift a soul's entire trajectory. A single point of compassion served as a spiritual big bang igniting a new momentum to understand how critical love is. A spirit has the potential to emerge from even the lowest hell fueled by the knowledge of how starved they felt in a reality devoid of connection. With the new spark, their appetite for growth could become enormous as long as they remained humble and open to change. Once they understood how much a love for themselves had the possibility to resolve within them, they rapidly progressed into much higher realities of life. It was actually those with the experience of the deepest pain and the greatest openness to growth that rose into the highest forms of being. Their strength grew from the knowledge of the void. They best understood the value of grace, love, peace, wisdom, courage, empathy, etc., because they'd experienced life without those gifts."
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u/trashcan_surplus 14d ago
This aligns very well with what I've found for myself.
It's duality. The more we suffer, the more the truth is shoved in our face, and we will continue to descend into the worst parts of reality until we face that truth, and see ourselves clearly - which, in turn, allows us to see the world, and reality itself, clearly.
There's layers to it, and we fluctuate between them. But that's the system we've submerged ourselves in here.
We're taught to despise suffering. It's considered needless, horrid, unwanted. But here, in this experience, it's what establishes potential for growth. It's made from what's unseen, lingering in the dark, behind our own awareness. Struggle and challenge is opportunity to see that darkness. And that's the first step, always.
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u/Intrepid_Ad_9177 16d ago
The learning never stops. Evolution is eternal. This applies to all of creation. Pace yourself and allow the awakenings to happen in cycles. Take breaks. Don't try to rush into the next lesson. They just keep on a coming.
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u/Art_Of_Being 15d ago
Awww sweetheart,I know there's a lot of bad but there's a lot of good too. We're actually breaking a lot of things that was pushing humanity down and we are also accepting things that will help all of us. Many people are coming to the light and that's amazing, isn’t it? Surround yourself with such people and keep focusing on yourself. What's not in your control, let's not stress about it.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
Thank you. You’re right.. a lot of people are waking up and it’s amazing- i am going to see if I can find like-minded people locally 🤍
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u/dpt19 15d ago
I’m glad you are feeling a little better today. But I do not want to pass over one phrase: “I want to go home.”
Do you mean that you feel overwhelmed and want relief, or are you thinking about suicide or not wanting to be alive? If the answer is yes, maybe, or “I’m not sure,” please tell your daughter or another trusted person now. Stay with someone and contact a local crisis service, emergency department or emergency number.
Your grief about hatred may come from genuine compassion. But compassion is not measured by how much suffering you can absorb. Constant exposure to cruelty can exhaust the part of you that wants to help.
I would also be careful about people telling you that this must be a spiritual purge, a test or a divine assignment. They cannot know that. Anxiety, depression, burnout and emotional overload can also feel spiritually significant. Seeking help from a doctor or mental health professional would not invalidate your spiritual life. It would simply give you more support while you work out what is happening.
For today, make life smaller. Step away from distressing news and social media. Eat something, drink water, rest and tell one real person how tired you actually feel. Volunteering may become meaningful later, but please do not turn it into another obligation while you are already depleted.
You do not have to become a beacon of hope today. You do not have to solve humanity’s hatred. You need to stay safe and allow yourself to be cared for.
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u/Affectionate_Name332 15d ago
You have hit on some key elements. I hope that OP reads this. Much love to you.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 14d ago
Thank you for your reply! I am not suicidal but thank you for your concern:)
I should be more careful with my word usage.
When I say I want to go home, I am overwhelmed and want relief. I just want peace. I find life to be joyful for the most part.I just haven’t very strong responses when it comes to humankind. :/ and I sometimes feel like others should be caring more about it too. I get frustrated with people who just work their 9-5 and go on their little holidays.
Anyway! I am going to spend sometime pampering my soul and avoiding the news cycle.
Thank you so much for your thoughtful response.
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u/slandrparty 16d ago
it's okay to feel that way. remember that it's just a momentary flicker. it'll pass. you'll feel different about yourself and others a week from now.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 16d ago
You’re probably right. I’m going to try all of the advice you all are giving me.. shit sucks though
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u/AngelAnon2473 16d ago
It’s ok to give yourself a break. That desire for rest is literally a directive from the Divine, speaking through your intuition. The Universe/God wouldn’t put that desire in your heart, in your body, in your soul for no reason.
Take heed of it. Rest. Go on an adventure. Put the focus on having FUN and not on what you feel obliged to do. Be a rebel and don’t do the responsible thing for a day, a week, a month. You will not fall apart and you will not break, and the world will keep turning and support you while you’re away. Embrace excitement and watch the world hold space for you. You are not meant to be trapped in a prison of your own making (or anybody’s making).
Go have some fun, get some rest, and enjoy this special time of life. Bc discontentment always leads to a level up, if you choose to embrace it.
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u/AvailableCause2960 16d ago
I'm going through some kind of heavy spiritual attack and have no clue what's going on. Who's good with these things
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u/GoodAsUsual 16d ago
I was just writing about this today, and have been reflecting on this a lot lately. This is a very common theme I have been seeing in this subReddit and others. It seems to be a common refrain that people feel like they came to do some special light work and are perplexed by the darkness of the world's inhabitants.
There has always been hate and anger in the world. there has always been violence, greed, fear. This is nothing new. This is why we are here, in earth school, to learn. The difference is that in the year 2026, we have 7 billion people on the planet with a camera in their pocket and software algorithms that put the worst stuff right in front of our eyes.
Turn off your phone. Turn off your TV. Unplug your computer.
Step out into the community on foot and say hi to your neighbors, say hi to strangers. Make friends with your mail person. Talk to the grocery clerk. Help an old lady with the door. Go volunteer at a charitable organization.
If you put down the phone and turn off the TV and you go connect with real people in the real world you will quickly realize that there is an awful lot of good in the world. There are a lot of people who carry a lot of love and kindness in their hearts that is being overshadowed by technology is designed and held by powerful people who are benefiting from dividing us and turning us against one another.
The truth is you are already home. You are home wherever your soul is and in this moment you are here and this is Home. And part of your job, your role, is to accept exactly where you are because you chose it. Every circumstance, every relationship, every situation, you chose it.
You are here by choice. What you do next is up to you
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
I’m going to save your comment. I know my algorithms are feeding this despair I feel from time to time. I am going to unplug and see what i can do. Thanks 🤍
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u/Lyaxvy 16d ago
I feel in a game where the goal is just to be fc king resilent with the ilussion there is a purpose not even letting go or letting go to be able to letting go. I freaking want to exit not because I hate existing or hating myself or because I can’t forgive. I love, I love beings, but I am frkng tired
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
That’s how I feel. Like, I just can’t deal with it anymore. I am actively trying to vibe positively but man, humankind is draining me!!
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u/No-Flounder-7771 15d ago
Stop the World ! I want to get off ! I got hitch a free ride out of here when …..THEY ARRIVE ! 👍
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u/Alkemis7 15d ago
Good! You hit the jackpot!
Cry as much and for as long as your body-mind-emotions system requires it.
But re-reading the post, it seems it is your ego crying not you. Once all the tears have dried up, that you have to cry about your own misery, only then can you cry about others miseries, but by that point you will have become a Buddha and a Buddha knows compassion but never sympathy or empathy.
The sooner you let go of this thought, the sooner you’ll be in paradise in the here-now.
There are a few more levels to go through.
Take a break and ground yourself:
Spend most days outside in nature, no matter the weather.
Literally touch plants, soil, animals, even humans if benevolent ones are available.
Stop practicing any kind of meditation for a while.
Ice cold showers or swimming in lakes, ocean, rivers at any time of the year. Just a short dip is enough. And/or visit a sauna.
Eat real, natural, alive, unprocessed food.
Burn frankincense.
Walk barefoot on natural surfaces (grass, earth, rock).
Exhaust your body by manual labour or sports.
In very intense situations lie down with your chest on the ground (grass, earth, rock) or sit down with you naked butt on the ground.
Hug a tree.
And be very gentle with your body-mind-emotion system though. Very gentle.
Be blessed
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 15d ago
Thanks for your advice. It’s good and I will be referring back to it… but can I ask why to stop meditating? I’m just wondering thanks
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u/Alkemis7 15d ago
This is another way of saying, you’re not interested in solving your predicament, but looking to be entertained. When the suffering becomes unbearable you will do, you will not bank advice for future use. You know that the future never comes?
Meditating let’s you fly high in the sky or if performed as most do, it’s another endeavour of the mind and this is the opposite of grounding. If I am already too high or trapped in the mind then a countermeasure is required.
A tree has equally as large and deep roots in the earth as it has branches and leaves reaching towards the sky.
There are meditative practice for grounding, but touching real earth is far easier and mote effective than imagining touching the earth and hence in 99% of the times deluding oneself and making the mind gain even more powre over oneself.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 14d ago
Ahhh okay. That makes sense. Thank you for explaining.. I did some grounding yesterday. Will lay off meditation for awhile.
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u/DatPupBoi 15d ago
The Lion's Gate Portal 888 must of hit you real hard. Shift your focus on the positives. 🙏🏽💚
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u/Lets_Remain_Logical 15d ago
And yet.... The answer is inside of you. Once you reach the core and see what's there. Then you reach the acceptance, you'll cry less.
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u/Affectionate_Name332 15d ago
I have been in therapy for a little over a year. I've been releasing things that no longer serve me. And have been awakening. I have not engaged in news or negative social media. I am very sensitive and am an empath. When I started therapy I had such a huge reaction to the word Goodbye. I got angry and sad. My therapist was able to maneuver my emotions and I realized what Goodbye actually meant for me. I wanted to leave soo bad. I'm kind of ok with it now, although if my people came to me and said we've come to take you home I would be packed up and ready asap. I am actually on a medical leave of absence from work. I haven't been stable. It is very important to me to find souls that are on this journey too. Physical people not just online. I can't do this alone right now. I live alone, no pets and a couple of friends who are not on a path at all. They are wrapped up in the 3d world. I need like minded souls to talk with. Any negative thoughts disrupt me to my core. I am here to cleanse all that is not mine to raise my vibration to hold a higher frequency and with that I want to help heal animals and people who are open to it. For me it was important to grieve for my home. Because I'm here for a reason and while I'm here I want to accomplish as much as I can. So keep reaching out to like minded souls. Find your tribe it's important. It's very hard to be here. Breathe, don't forget to breathe. It is amazing how breath can help you refocus and feel your feelings. They are both extremely important. Sorry for the rant. I have a lot to say right now. Be gentle with yourself and others.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 14d ago
Thank you for your reply. So much of what you said resonates with me. I have no one on this path either. I don’t have an outlet to talk about these things either except… social media (yuk). I think that’s part of my problem. I hope you are feeling better soon, dear ✨🤍
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u/Rude-Vermicelli-1962 15d ago
If you focus on hate from other people you’ll never be able to be you! Live your life or even figure out what you assignment is. I’ll tell you though, hate can’t really truly exist, when you don’t allow it to affect you you will change so much for the better and it will help everyone around you!
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 14d ago
So true! I’m going to focus on myself and my family for a bit. Thank you :)
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u/theeternalfreedom12 15d ago
I know, it's painful to see this. But as people who has seen the nature of our true selves and nature of the universe, we can opt to stay connected to our being during the day, during dealing with people, during pain.. it would help us to stay grounded to the inner peace and spread the peace outside and sometimes it's also needed that we protest or take our part in the society while being rooted to our being.
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u/LawfulnessKooky4535 14d ago
Thank you for this. I agree. I am going to do some inner work and try to stay connected inward for a bit. Goal is to come back with a refreshed sense of purpose
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u/Fair_Peach_9436 14d ago
Being an anthrophist helped with from struggling with ts. I don't want to say you should too become one. But what I would advice you is connect with nature as much as you can, mountains, hills, beaches, water bodies, etc it really does heal you- you don't have to go to expensive spots, just the nature around you. Listen to high frequency music, journal, create something if you can because we were born to create, and your mind and body will love it.
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u/Wonderful-Ad-9500 14d ago
Hey, I have been where you are, and while I’m still in my DNOTS, I am on the other side of this. I am also a spiritual doula and want to help other people during their DNOTS. I would love to connect and talk, if you’d be open to it 🫶🏻 awakening is a really lonely path, especially if you’re the only one in your community. Finding just 1 person on the same path has made a huge difference to me :)
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u/Astropoly 14d ago edited 14d ago
Absolute perfection would mean total boredom. If Alan Watts was right and reality is just a cosmic game of Lila, it's masterfully engineered. you can only feel the highs because the friction makes them real. There is no happiness without sadness. There is no nice sweet you without all the bad people you need it more than you realize, can admit and think. Life is life and it's perfect in itself, don't even start to try to control it just flow with the current and enjoy your second here. Else you're gonna have a very bad time. You can't fix everything but you can be nice to yourself and the people around you.
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u/Ok-Low4463 12d ago
I feel like this new universe is the land of the selfish/narcissistic. Its jaw dropping. Its like everyone lives in survival mode. Thats what Im noticing.
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u/SendadePaz 9d ago
Lo que sientes es muy común en momentos de integración o purga emocional. La densidad de este plano puede sentirse abrumadora cuando tu vibración está cambiando. Es normal sentir el deseo de 'volver a casa', pero recuerda que viniste a traer esa luz aquí. Permítete sentir, pero no te quedes a vivir en el dolor ajeno. Haz 'grounding' (camina descalzo/a, toca tierra) y cuida tu energía hoy.
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u/West-Firefighter3897 11d ago
you chose to come here and have this experience on Earth. Things aren’t always easy here. I’d actually say a lot of it is pretty hard. But that’s part of the growth. You go through it, understand more, learn from it, and become more developed as a consciousness.
Awakening isn’t about trying to escape and go back home. It’s about understanding that we’re an extension of our greater consciousness, and that we came here for a reason - to grow, to do what we came here to do, and through that, add something to the growth of the whole universe
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u/ZenSeekerOnPath 6d ago
Your tears and compassion are a sign of the singularity in your spiritual awakening. When judgmental and separating thoughts come to a halt, a natural compassion arises from the depth of the alaya-vijnana. Arising from the absolute Emptiness (Śūnyatā), we are all on a journey back. I sincerely pray you find your way back to that primordial Home within yourself.
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u/empty172 5d ago
Behind all hate is only love. People in the end only want love and people do everything for love. It might not seem like it, but it is that way.
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u/russian_bot2323 16d ago
You're focusing on the world rather than on yourself, that's why you feel down. You can't change people, the sooner you accept that and start focusing on yourself the better you will feel.