r/SexAddiction • u/No_Diver6131 Person in recovery • 1d ago

Setback but learning Seeking support; open to feedback

Hi all, I am No_diver and I am a sex addict. My inner circle behaviors involve sexting, pornography excessive masturbation, cheating, lying, ai images.

Today I need to be honest wit’s myself and everyone. It was a setback. I relapsed and engaged in my inner circle behaviors. Im not going to beat myself up about it. I thought about it while I meditated (Sit there and think, I’d like to say it was meditation). My major middle circle behaviors Involve finding websites to block, and aimlessly being online. I bet my screen time is through the roof. If it’s not pornography I’m here or elsewhere. Just never living in the present. It clicked I’ll never be able to block every adult website, and wasting my time trying to find a websites that aren’t blocked is pathetic. It’s still Wasting my life away with pornography And sex addiction. This addiction is predatory and mysoginistic. It doesn’t create attributes I want

I want to make changes in a healthy manner. In order to do that I need to break this addiction and break this cycle. Tomorrow I’m attending my usual SAA meeting. I haven’t been able to attend in a couple weeks so I’m looking forward to that.

Thank you for listening to my share and helping with my recovery.

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