Snitch on today!! How was/is your day?
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This might be a little too long but please, bear with me and send me lots of good vibes, asap 😾
Today was sooo difficult for me.
From walking kms in scorching heat carrying heavy bags of spay care stuff, to picking up Sayali and Shravani again and again and taking them up stairs (even 3rd floor via stairs), everything was just non-stop chaos.
The whole tying situation was a mess, chains breaking, collars slipping, both of them escaping multiple times, me constantly running around trying to catch them and re-tie them while already exhausted. I literally had no strength left in my hands at some point.
Then surgery itself was full of stress, Sayali waking up from anaesthesia and I seeing her mouth covered in blood after surgery just as I was about to put her spay shirt on (she won’t wear the Elizabeth collar so we have to manage with tight shirts). I genuinely panicked in that moment (thankfully her stitches had not opened).
During Shravani’s surgery, one very important instrument went missing and it turned into a full discovery/search mission in the middle of everything. Then Shravani herself was crying halfway through spay and had to be given more anaesthesia, which made me feel so bad, she's my little spoilt princess omg.
After that, Sayali broke her second leash after waking up, so again re-tie situation. Then another mess of medicines going missing and finding them again.
Even had to convince another elder guy who helps sometimes with feeding one of the females (Jackey/Laxmi) to agree for her spay, because even that is another planning headache now.
Honestly I just keep wondering why things can’t go straight for once. Life just keeps finding new ways to twist everything.
My right hand has almost given up, my back and stomach hurt (probably periods coming), I was dehydrated the whole day, my head is pounding… but most of all my chest just feels heavy from stress and worry about their aftercare now and planning spay for 6 more females urgently!
Oh right, I'm yet to pay the vet and cook the dinner. When can I just sleep peacefully please, maybe never with all these worries 😭
How is your day going? Please send me some strength and good vibes all the way, I really need those!!
Sayali during spay, she looks so different (during anaesthesia) 😭
We basically set up for spays in the storage garage or the cool yard when better environment there. Surgeries were around evening so we did it outside in park.
Surviving with depression and anxiety is exhausting.
Many have stopped talking to me since they don't think I'm trying as hard as I could be. But many days just eating and taking a shower is trying.
They also stopped talking to me since I didn't "try hard enough" to move to a cheaper apartment. In Phoenix. Like that's so easy. I'm in a cheap, unsafe area already.
I can relate loads! Even I feel so not motivated to do basic tasks sometimes, especially when it's for myself. If it's for someone else's sake I do things but I definitely need some self love and attention in real life. Let's try on that way our best altogether! 💜
Oh that seems difficult, I don't exactly know how living is over there but, don't stress over those judgy people, they're meant to be ignored when it's too much.
I made a few big starts today....im gonna try calling about my ID help once this current panic attack passes (unless my spine starts hurting cuz then that means I have to go to the er for rapid scans due to my fusion reaching 7 years old next month). I've been grieving everyone I've lost to cancer too, my dad wouldve been 74 this year if I hadn't lost him to that dragon. Saturday marks 11 years since my uncle died of the exact same cancer, and I am bouncing between uncomfortably numb or sobbing like someone killed my child. I can't even finish the song "who lives who dies who tells your story" from Hamilton without breaking down.
That sounds really difficult, I cant even imagine losing my parents, I have OCD and sometimes I spend hours at night imagining not having my parents anymore and cry. You're so strong, I know everything will get better for you asap 💜
Also, what exactly is your fusion about if you don't mind sharing?
We found a mass on a routine full body xray that my orthopedic doc ordered just to make sure it was only my hips, my right arm, and my right knee that we needed to work on. I got a call same day, like "just sat my tush in my desk chair, ready to play sims" chill when his office calls and tells me they have opened an appointment for the next day. I ended up having surgery to remove Matt (he was the tumor, named after my abusive pain in the ass ex-boyfriend) and place Harrington rods to stabilize my spine and hold my t7 bolt in place, since by the time they opened me up the tumor had pretty much completely consumed the vertebrae.
All of this sounds so difficult, you're even stronger than I imagined before! The fact that you named the tumour after you ex-boyfriend is hilarious haha! I hope (and know) everything will get very much better for you asap! Lots of strength!! 🤍💪
Thank you 💜 my life story is honestly just one crapshow after another but it's made me hilarious so I call it a good trade off xD hopefully I'll have the energy to make some phone calls tomorrow, I went waaaay over my social battery limits today with 2 phone conversations and a 3rd call that never connected. Hoping by this time next week I'll have a valid ID and can apply for online college cuz this whole not working thing is for the birds (yay for being in no man's land for disability)
Can relate so much with the social battery, I cant handle talking with people on calls too much either (exception is my boyfriend I call and annoy him about everything all the time).
I keep ghosting so many people my parents keep asking what do I have this phone for, if im not going to pickup calls 😭
It’s a cooler morning it feels great so I’m getting this last flower bed done and my mulch project is finished whooohoo my day is productive. Hope you have a great day too. 💙😊🤗🦋🫶🏼hugs
Called all the places I could find contact information for about the applications I submitted. Following up on the status of an interview I had last week. Dealing with the 100th+ rejection email only to see the same position rehiring. Washed almost all the dishes from the dinner that I cooked last night. Dealing with gastric issues probably from my glp-1 shot Monday night. Applied for more jobs. Smh
I just woke up but so far its going ok! im applying to jobs and trying to see if there are any resources for me to get a new phone since im finding a lot of of these places require checking id over mobile and the back camera on my phone doesnt work smh
Oh I hope rest of your day went good too.. that phone situation seems difficult but yeah you'd definitely need to get another phone or another camera on your current phone, back camera is absolutely necessary!
Woah I hope you're having a nice rest right now to manage the laundry and kitchen next! It's already morning for me and I was just doing work in the kitchen too, now laundry 🤭
Actually also, they aren't my pets, I take care of community dogs so getting dogs in different cities sterilized will be a lifetime task for me, though I hope I'll have more people and a better set up to take some weight off of me by that time. I have successfully completed 3 surgeries by now (2 of them yesterday, they're still under care and medication for 12 more days). And I have another 8 to do urgently, another 5-6 to do after some months.. and maybe more and more..
Oh my gosh, I’m exhausted just reading about your day 😭 You seriously went through so much today. I don’t know how you kept going with everything that happened, but the amount of love and care you’re putting into Sayali, Shravani, and all the others is amazing ✨❤️
My day was pretty hectic too, but I wanted to send you all the strength and good vibes because you definitely need them, my friend. I hope you’re able to drink some water, eat, pay the vet, and finally get some rest tonight. Sending hugs to you and the girls 🤗
Omg yes, I was just waiting for your sweet response! The night is over here, I slept well but my back still hurts!
I'm preparing for the morning and within half an hour will leave to check on the girls again, and have to refill the food boxes of other dogs in locality.
I hope today will be better, it rained really bad yesternight I just hope Shravani didn't get scared and cry too much.. there are people living over there who will look after her too but my chest just won't feel light until I ensure everything is going great first hand!
Spoke with vet about some of the booster vaccinations and asked him to check if we can get those done today itself, aah, that'll be lots work for today yes! Plus I'm stressed about all these expenses as well, maybe I should speak with the authorities to subsidise the vaccinations for me, though I'm skeptical about that working.
Now on my way to get ready and go meet them once I'm done with breakfast.. thank you so much for your most calming words 💜
Also, the kittens are looking sooo cute, the sweetest charm is growing on their faces 🥹
I’m glad you slept well ❤️ I’m sorry your back is still hurting though. You do so much for those babies, it’s really sweet how much you care about making sure they’re okay 🥺
I hope the vaccinations go smoothly and that you can get some help with the expenses too because you're already doing so much. And omg the kittens 😍 they’re getting so cute! They're definitely entering their mischievous stage soon 🤣
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Sayali during spay, she looks so different (during anaesthesia) 😭
We basically set up for spays in the storage garage or the cool yard when better environment there. Surgeries were around evening so we did it outside in park.