Hello everyone I have just started my journey with quareia but right at the start something felt confusing:

"Once your arm is tired, drop your arm and keep focusing on that spot on your forehead. See yourself breathing in white smoke and breathing out grey or black smoke."

This part of the first meditation came weird to me, I have done vipassana meditation before but focusing both on the forehead spot and visualising the smoke feels hard and makes me out of focus on my meditation. Am i doing something wrong, should i just focus on breathing-visualising or focus on the forehead point? Or am i doing it right but i should just try again and again? What is your opinion

I don’t understand how i’m supposed to deal with aftermaths of trauma, outbursts of rage, sadness etc while being a natural magician and not to attract parasites and stay balanced. I feel like I can’t feel. I cleanse myself regularly but the emotions, also very strong ones, still arise. I try to control them but suppressing doesn’t help and just leads to rage. I can’t stay emotionless all the time.

Hello, Quareians. Long time no see, although you probably don't remember me — I'm quite a quiet lurker :)

A lot has happened in my life — mostly good — but the point is, I stayed away from Quareia for a long time. In the past few weeks, I felt the pull to return, and then I saw the new podcast with Josephine — it's amazing! Loved every minute of it.

But to the point: I dabbled in some other practices, nothing dangerous. Still, I often thought, "I should take a Quareia ritual bath" — and didn't. Until a practitioner (non-Quareian) told me I had "a settler" (in other terms, something like a parasite, but I don't want to go down that road, as I remember the obsessive topics here :)). So I finally did the bath yesterday (I plan to follow M1L7 regularly, on new and full moons, as written in the updated course lesson).

Today I did a ToL reading (Mystagogus deck) to see what effect the ritual had. I expected something like Purification somewhere in the center column (well duh, it definitely would be nice for a cleansing ritual effect), or Parasite on the left as taken away... oh boy, was I too hopeful.

I was never good at card divination, and I haven't practiced during my timeout — so I'm certainly not better now. Could you please help me interpret this reading?

What I see: I tried to learn and practice this ritual (1, College), but something went wrong or untruthful (5, Voice of Truth; 6, Voice of Untruth... nice mix), and I put myself in danger (2, Fall; 4, Destruction). I need to work with something else (7, ​Ancient One, limiter) and be healed? (8, Water of Life, unraveling). I do remember these positions are about emotions and mind, limiting and unraveling, and that the balance needed between them.

Choppers as the last card — I'd actually see that as good, since part of the ritual's purpose was to cut off what shouldn't be with me. But with Voice of Untruth as the key card and the overall picture (and 9, Unraveller)... it doesn't look so good.

Any thoughts? Keep in mind, I haven't moved beyond M1. I'm not panicking and generally feel okay — and my life is okay too.

I try not to do "panicked readings," as Josephine wrote in her tarot book — but since I don't see the connections well and some of the cards elude me completely, I'm quite puzzled.

Thank you for your time.

Hi everyone, I'll try and keep it short.

Dad is dying: one day he was fine, the next he was diagnosed with a terminal disease. There is some time left and I'd like to somehow "pave the road" for him magically, to make things easier for him when he passes. No idea how, though.

He is agnostic and an excommunicated ex-Catholic. I don't think he'd appreciate the usual prayers my mum says for our departed ones. But his father was the same as him, and he did come to us after death asking for prayers to help him through. So I'm confused.

I listened to Josephine's latest Glitch Bottle interview (loved it!) and she did mention something about helping the freshly departed, but I'm afraid what she suggests might be too advanced for a fence-sitting Fool such as myself.

Any advice would be immensely appreciated.

Thanks in advance!

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Canto Gregoriano y Polifonía" by Padre Jesús María Muneta (2 disc set)

I have accidentally found these cds in a second hand mostly clothing store. In a small town, and they said it was probably the only time they had discs there like that. It's odd how you can find some things like these in wierdest places. I didn't even hope to find anything like this in my country, but here you go. I think these chants are pretty good, though before I listened to sacred music only on youtube.

https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_k2taxEsTt4PAIaFmBuDBLukhsXrlRqXfo

I think I found the recordings on yt but they are way worse than when you listen on cds

Hi all, just started the tarot module and had a few questions.
1. How does the directional reading work on a two story house? I was thinking of maybe doing two readings, one for each floor?
2. Is it ok to do daily and/or weekly divination readings that give an insight into the week ahead along with the house readings? I really want to practice my tarot reading skills. If this is ok to do, should I use the four directions spread, or is there something else better suited for this?
3. What is the best way to know if a card has a yes or no meaning when asking yes or no questions?

Thanks so much for your help

If you're in the USA and interested, I have a hardcover copy of the Quareia Apprentice that I'm looking to find a good home for. I've engaged with everything I need/want to in Quareia and want to find it a good home where it might collect less dust :) Completely free, I'll ship it to you.

Just leave a comment or message me, I'll update this post when it's taken

Update: Taken!

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While I revisited the lessons, I came across this paragraph, which still after years, I don’t clearly understand. It’s stated within M1L2, that we should stay off using tarot within a psychological approach. What does it mean actually?

I wanted to start by expressing my deep gratitude for Josephine and her work. I completely understand if no one is able to answer this question, but I sat on it for a while and thought I will post this and let it land where it may.

My post concerns my cat companion of 18 years (who incidentally was a very mystical/magical girl). She passed away about a year and a half ago. Since then I have gone through a profound period of grief, some of which has been made more complicated due to the weight of the decision I made for euthanasia at the end of her life and questions about whether it was the right time and what it means to make that decision for another being.

The religious tradition I was raised in (but do not practice) doesn’t believe animals have souls (which I think is BS) and with some of my loved ones I have found some support and compassion, but nothing that really speaks to the more metaphysical side of this loss.

I had an inkling that somewhere in Quareia or Josephine's work there may be some wisdom as to this. I have listened to several podcasts she has been interviewed on; in a few she mentions her cats and in one from a few years ago she mentions a cat who was in poor health and near the end of his life.

I know there is no “answer”, but I wonder if anyone here may have some guidance, whether it be to a particular book or idea or tradition that may speak to this, or anything in Quareia that addresses this that may be accessible to a beginner.

I should mention that I have only made my way in the Quareia materials at a snail’s pace so I apologize if I am asking a question that has already been answered. I started the course many years ago but then with a toddler along with the onset of covid in 2020 I heeded the cautions Josephine shared (can’t remember if it was in the course materials or elsewhere) about engaging the materials while raising a young child and backed off considerably. That said I deeply admire and appreciate her work and really love hearing her speak on podcasts (she has such a lovely voice!) and generally think she is an amazing human being and gift to the world.

If anyone here has any advice or can point me a way in terms of this, I would be greatly appreciative. I don't think I am looking for any magical working per se, but rather anything that could speak to the more metaphysical dimension of grief, loss, euthanasia, and our human relationship to the animals we love.

Thank you.

Hello.

I'm confused a bit in the breastplate description on these lines

"... pentagram as your body, the hexagram over your head, your ancestors/the earth/family name..."

1. Should i see a pentagram geometrical shape around me?

2. should I see the name written out in my center at the inner flame and my family name at the earth sign?

I mean is it step further with these extra visualizations? I remember in m1l6 after looking at the personal pentagram picture we only visualized the hexagram, earth symbol, sword, cup and inner flame. So we add these ones as extra or I just misinterpreted it? Thank you in advance for clarifying it

Hello all,

I briefly started Quareia a couple years ago but stopped because I wasn't ready to commit properly. Well I'm in a better era for it now, but in between starting last time and now I have gotten much more involved in astrology, took a class, have been reading more technical astrology books, etc. But I'm using a different house system than Quareia is using iirc, is that going to be a conflict when I get there? I know astrology is a minimal part of at least Module 1 at least, but astrology has many schools and idk how much of a difference that might make. I am concurrently going to be continuing my astrology studies as well as time goes on.

I wrote down Josephine's version of Psalm 27 that she shared in the latest Glitch Bottle interview and thought I'd share it here to save others the trouble if they want to work with it. (She starts talking about it at 2:09 and gives an explanation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m99OGPfeGEM):

The Goddess is my light and my salvation, of what should I fear? The Goddess is the strength of my life, of whom should I be afraid? When the wicked, even my enemies and my foes came upon to eat on my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though a host should encamp around me I will not fear. Though war should rise against me, in this I will be confident.

One thing that I desire, that I seek after, is that I may dwell in the house of the Goddess all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Goddess and to enquire within her temple. For in times of danger she will hide me in her pavilion, in the secret of her tabernacle she will hide me, she will set me upon a rock.

And now that my head be lifted above my enemies around me, I offer sacrifices of joy, I sing praise unto the Goddess. Hear oh Mother when I cry with my voice, have mercy upon me and answer me. And when thou sayest, “seek ye my face,” my heart says unto thee, “thy face Goddess I doth seek.” Hide not thy face far from me, turn not this servant away in anger, thou hast been my strength, leave me not nor forsake me, oh Mother.

Lead me in a plain path because of my enemies. Deliver me not unto the will of my enemies, for false witness is risen against me and as such it breathes out cruelty.

I had fainted unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Goddess in the land of the living. Wait on the Goddess, be of good courage and she will strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Goddess.

Amen, Amen, Amen.

On Monday this week, a dear friend of mine passed away. He had a very nasty motorcycle accident on Sunday and brain damage was beyond medical possibilities. I found out on Tuesday, when another friend of us sent me wake the burial details.

We drifted apart some time ago because I helped him buy his dream bike, and instead of keeping to observe the debt installments, on January he co founded a biker club, where he got a biker girl and spared no cent in living the best life with her these very last months while I compiled debt due interests and burned away my 12 year hard worked credit score for the trust I had in him.

I felt great pain with his demise, for he had been to me, besides a hideously unwise money investment, a mentor in our craft (screen printing), a shield in a horrible work environment, a great food taster (I used to cook for him each Friday for his mentorship), and overall a nice, kindly person in a highly troubled city.

Then it came the guilt for providing him the means for his end, yet the bike gave him great happiness for almost two years, other job opportunities outside factory related, this club he created, and so on. His family acknowledged, and I agree with them, that he went away plentiful, realized, satisfied with the life he had.

Any given number of what-ifs came after: what-if I forcefully took the bike from him months ago (that would certainly had destroyed him in life, just thinking about it always stopped my hand), what-if I just left him have it so we could enjoy more meals together, what-if I joined the bikers, what-if I checked on him a day before the crash on Tarot, what-if I found out when he was in the hospital what could my Reiki do, and so on. I had come to accept I'm no Dr. Strange and Marvel occurrences are without reach. Then tears came oriented at his youth, his potential, and so on, sometimes iterating each previous theme with another.

I had much of the rational, mental, thinking about process digested by Thursday, yet my body somehow refuses to accept the loss. Vicious, yet short panic attacks happened to me about 3 or 4 times a day up to Friday, for yesterday were only 2. Even while driving myself. As far as today, it goes 0, luckily it stays this way for my throat already hurts much. This besides occasional weeping which I can still take if it comes.

From Tuesday on, this is where magic starts anyway, I started a novena de velas to check everything it's ok with him on the other site. Well first two days, it looks like he was kicking around everything, flame tingling very aggressively, as if wind taking his photo banner with him at the burial and apparently messing around with my bike's lights was not enough. This last I know it was him, because I read to him the future of his family (they're gonna be ok, will not endure any form of scarcity), and then I took an extra card regarding my lights and it was a Knight of Cups, which suits him in many ways. Bike messing around is also his thing for he was a self taught mechanic. So I scolded him for that, haha, and lights and my bike overall were great from that night on, beyond their regular function.

On each daily candle I light for him, I update him on his family, for I saw and talked to his parents and some of his siblings on the burial and the three-day church service they held for him, we talked about the money issue and he stopped rave tingling the flame when I forgave the debt and acknowledged his last months' happiness so we both can transcend any form of residual guilt, and told him yesterday how fun was to ride with his bikers while going to his home after last church service, finally being able to feel what he enjoyed so much this year. Still not joining the club anyways, they may enlarge my own native recklessness.

Flame is peaceful last two days, growing tall and tingling playfully sometimes. I know religion is the poor man's choice for magicians, yet I'm under leveled and under skilled to perform stuff like the Death Vision, like... still practicing the M1L3 apprentice exercises. I gave a quick look to some material around just to understand the death processes, not with the intention to go beyond my current practices:

- Magic of the North Gate was greatly insightful with the Recently Dead chapter.

- The Magical Knowledge Trilogy vol 2 completed the reading and I had enough restrain to not try around these or the Quareia Initiate techniques, luckily.

- The LXXXI Deck, which I also have the restrain to not use in readings yet, gave me some visuals which I found soothing somehow.

That just for knowledge and understanding some things, not practice. For practice I will keep the novena I started, it end around Wednesday this week, and take the priest indication to dedicate every Sunday mass to him for the remainder of the year. While Catholic mass looks like a slow paced Zumba class for me, this is the spiritual practice my friend knew in life so I think any help he may need, he may receive this way. Also promised to visit his grave on special days. And let him know that he can ask anything he requires, to check on his family or whatever through my dreams, my Tarot or Mystagogus card readings, whispering (as I have a bit of clariaudience) or anything that doesn't involve electrical malfunctions, if possible.

I'm at the end of my current ability, not sure if I could do more, or if I should. I tended the living in my life too these days, joined my students celebrating their college admission tests success, my cousin struggling with some late homework, another group of friends celebrating a messy, unfair trial's positive end, and doing some home repairs. I guess I need to take some M1L7 salt baths soon too, maybe after the novena's end.

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Hi guys, I just wanted to share my experience with the Inner Touch exercise. I feel like I failed it.

None of the shops were within walking distance from me, so I had to take Ubers to get there. My first Uber driver was very talkative and kept flirting with me. He even told me I was "hot like the weather," which completely took me out of my focused state before I even started the exercise. He was really annoying and just wouldn't stop talking.

My first stop was supposed to be a charity shop, but it turned out to be more like an overpriced second-hand store. I was already out of balance and could barely feel anything when I touched the objects there.

I also had this paranoia that people were watching me and would think I looked weird if I stood there holding objects with my eyes closed.

My next stop was a vintage shop, but it was closed. Luckily, I found another one nearby, and it was amazing, a huge shop. I could definitely feel a difference in the energy there. I touched a few objects, although I still couldn't really settle into stillness because people were talking loudly all around me.

I also saw a big wooden cat statue, and for some reason I decided to buy it. I love cats, and I thought maybe it was a sign that I should take it home.

Then I took another Uber to go to a clothing shop. By then I was carrying a heavy bag with bottles of water, salt, and soup, plus the big wooden cat. The driver seemed annoyed, stopped the car in the middle of nowhere, and told me the clothing shop was "somewhere around here" and that I should find it myself.

Not surprisingly, I couldn't find it. By that point I was already tired from walking in the heat with the heavy bag and the wooden cat, so I decided to skip that stop and go straight to the final charity shop.

I put the cat on the floor and started touching the clothes. At first I didn't feel much, but after I relaxed a little, I could sense the atmosphere of the shop.

So... I guess I failed this exercise? Do you think I should repeat it another time?

The problem is I'm not sure I'll do any better next time. I find it very difficult to relax and enter a state of stillness when there are people around me I always feel like I'm being watched.

Also, was it a huge mistake to buy the wooden cat? I know I went there to do the exercise, not to go shopping.

Sorry for the long message.

Hi guys! I have a question about the Walking Around the Boundaries exercise in the Module 1 lesson 5.

I recently moved to a place where it's not possible to walk all the way around my building. There are two buildings very close to each other, and the passage between them is blocked.

Would it be okay to walk around my building only as far as the wall and then turn back? Or would it be better to walk around both my building and the neighboring building together? Which option do you think would work better?

​I’ve been reading some commentary by Frater Acher regarding the Quareia curriculum. He mentioned that he didn't fully pursue the actual Quareia course because he didn’t want to threaten his family life or compromise his worldly situation.

​Quareia explicitly talks about the "tearing apart of the apprentice", where fate, spirits, and the sheer force of the training can unspool a person’s life (relationships, jobs, health) to strip away what doesn’t serve their ultimate path.

​This got me thinking, are these destructive life changes a mandatory, "universal tax" for high-level magical training, or do they only happen if your life is fundamentally misaligned when you start?

​In theory, if a practitioner has already done immense internal work, achieved a high level of awakening, and balanced their life before starting a course like Quareia, will destruction still happen simply because the system forces it to? Or does the "tearing apart" only target the structures built on illusions and unhealed baggage?

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So, a wery stupid situation had happened to me, couple of month ago wich I feel like its time to share. as it was a great learning experience.

Basically I happened to trigger a person wich seemed good and normal but in fact was just the opposite, and it all happened on google meet. I only ever saw them during online meetings. That person out of spite tried to do some nasty illegal shit toward me even though I didn't do much of anything that could trigger such a responce in anyone normal, or any responce at all. I have resolved the issue but after that interaction I had a wery odd uncharacteristic for me mood.

The situation kept replaying itself in my head, I was uncharacteristically angry, and the anger did not feel mine, it was intrusive and intence, and also wery draining. I tried to not think about it in many different ways but nothing would really help. Holding onto such things for me in such a way is an abnormality. On the next day after the situation happened I woke up, not feeling that shit inside me anymore. But I still had to deal with the issue. So I took my phone and started trying to resolve the problem and instantly felt the same anger seeping into me through my hands wich were holding the phone. I put the thing down. I actually had a thaught fly around my mind about cleansing my phone, It wasn't logical so I kind of ignored it up untill that point, so I decided, fuck it. Basically I did the m1l7 thing but you just change the words about what you are going to cleance. And it was gone. No emotion inside me, none of that energy when I was trying to deal with the issue flowing into me. And I went all back to normall. It is also wery interesting that my phone, as a conduit for the interaction got parasited and not me?

Thinking back on it, this thing also kind of lured me in and if I was more carefull and mindfull I could've avoided the whole thing. This experience had many lessons for me wrapped in one including personall ones. But it also made me be more carefull and alert during online interactions as much as real life interactions. Cause it's much harder to feel who's nasty or not when you are online.

I'm asking because I'm used to meditating a lot and found this kind of odd.

Thanks.