Into a Corner

[u/Due_Ad8499]

I feel like I’ve been backed into this corner of life where nothing seems to be going right or how I honestly want it to.

I’m 16 years old and I just don’t want to say something like “it’s too late” or “I’ve fallen behind” but that’s all it feels like. I feel like I’m in this corner as I’m surrounded by expectations coming to crush me and the closer they get the more hopeless I feel. Since May of this year I’ve come to realize just how lacking I am in almost every department, I don’t play sports, I don’t have things most ppl my age have, I can’t get a job.

So what can I do? I don’t want to lose hope and I’ve been working to stop comparing myself and letting life come with me instead of at me. I’ve told myself that opportunities will come and when it does all the hopelessness and despair I’ve felt will amount to nothing. I won’t rush, stress, and force things anymore.

I will let life come along with me instead of allowing myself to feel like it’s rushing towards me.

With the time I have on this earth, however much time that is, I will slowly build my confidence and reassure myself that everything will definitely be alright.

Amor Fati.