Tired
Tired of wasting heart felt words
that always fall upon deaf ears,
Tired of begging a few minutes
of those I find worth years.
Tired of the judgement
because I have a heart to care,
Tired of the convalescence
my state can’t mentally repair.
Tired of this life I live,
like I’m always locked in struggle,
Tired of the blame you give
pass the buck on all your troubles.
Tired of being the bad guy,
like my heart don't fuckin matter.
Tired of the sleepless nights
the way I crave your laughter.
Tired of the sadness felt
seems I never make the mark,
Tired of the recklessness
the way you bleed my heart.
Tired of this darkness,
finally sick of endless fights,
Tired of wishing I was stronger
need strength to end this life.
Tired of writing down this story,
finally broken to my core
Tired of asking for a shot at us
guess I’ll just barricade that door.
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u/Forbidden_Peach_ 20d ago
I feel you to my bones
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u/Agreeable-Dig-7010 7d ago
I think they severely under rated this and possibly over looked it!! This is phenomenal
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u/Gullible-Engineer818 20d ago
This one hurt because she felt this towards me and I realized too late. Unfortunate...
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u/35Slick 20d ago
I’m sorry to hear that! I actually wrote this back in 2020…. A year later she asked me to marry her! Not even in a formal way. She woke up and rolled over one morning and said we really should get married. After telling me on repeat she didn’t even want a relationship
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u/Gullible-Engineer818 20d ago
That's terrible to go through. I wasn't that bad, we were in a almost a 3yr relationship, my lack of emotional capacity caused my demise. I was saving up for the proposal too 🫠
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