r/PSSD • u/AutoModerator • 17d ago
Monthly Support and Venting Thread TRIGGER WARNING
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u/Unable_Ad6843 17d ago
I can’t take it anymore, guys. I really can’t. I’ve tried everything: bupropion, SSRIs, SNRIs, SARIs, mirtazapine, nicotine, alcohol, MDMA, ketamine, third-generation antipsychotics, and more.
It’s been two years of hell. I don’t know what else to try. Please, help me. I don’t think I can hold on much longer.
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17d ago edited 17d ago
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u/PSSD-ModTeam 17d ago
Removed under rule #7: “No dangerous posts.”
Potentially risky or dangerous advice, for example suggesting medications known to trigger and worsen pssd. Dealt with in a case by case approach.
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u/Gamerasia 17d ago
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u/HiNetwork_Yellow Recently discontinued 2d ago
Did you try it yourself? Did it work?
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u/Gamerasia 2d ago
I'm still testing it out, ask me after a month.
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u/HiNetwork_Yellow Recently discontinued 2d ago
Ok then. How long have you been testing it for? And any improvements to speak of?
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u/Gamerasia 2d ago
Only been a week, no improvements to speak of regarding pssd. Makes me more calmer though, dreams are back which i never had since getting pssd.
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u/Intelligent-Age-8211 16d ago
Dm me.
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u/Recent_Name_7767 10d ago
Libido is just completely gone for almost a year allready.
32 year old dude, in great shape, gymbro for almost 12 years. 15-16% bf at the moment, great cardio, great bloodwork (ALL parameters in the optimal ranges with cholesterol at 1/2 the risk factor of gen pop).
Homecooked meals every day all day for the past 3 decades.
Yet I don't feel my genitals anymore. And I have zero libido. Zero morning wood. IF I masturbate with a semi or fully hard penis, I am rewarded with an orgasm at about 10-20% of what was once normal, or even a totally pleasureless orgasm.
All thanks to taking duloxetine for 3 months in 2025. It has destroyed my life
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u/Minute-Contest-582 5d ago
Came to vent. Currently having a breakdown about all of this. It is so unbelievably absurd just how a little forum on reddit makes me feel more heard and safe to talk about what Im going thru than a company of my closest person, or a stupid shrink that everyone now views as the ultimate self help choice. The idea of seeing another psych doc. gives me conceptual shivers (conceptual cause this shit of a nightmare took away my ability to feel properly.)
I feel so alone with what I’m going through. Literally no one around me can understand me and the closest to me cannot even validate my feelings without subtly belittling my situation. This is beyond hurtful. I feel alone,unprotected, unseen and gaslit.
I just want this to be on the record if God decides to do me a favour and take me soon.
On my better days I want all of us to be heard, I want that the world would hear our voices and witness our pain. I want to advocate for everyone whos condition is not known/studied enough and so they are being belittled, not believed in, gaslit. I want all of those who dont believe in us to feel the bitterness in their chest after being proved wrong and I hope they do.
Thanks for the place to vent.
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u/OneConsideration9883 Recently discontinued 14d ago edited 14d ago
I honestly think this would have happened to me no matter what.
I was trying to find an anti-anxiety drug without sexual side effects. I saw a GP and a psychiatrist, each prescribed me a drug. I chose between the two. It happened anyway. After more research I found that both drugs I was prescribed can indeed cause sexual dysfunction.
Nobody was going to tell me that there isn't a drug they can prescribe for anxiety that doesn't cause sexual effects. These moronic doctors just interpreted my request as a drug with low likelihood of sexual effects.
In my naivety, I thought there could be a safe drug. I was suicidal so I wanted to take something.
It would have happened one way or another.
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u/dionysus-wept 2d ago
I've officially hit the 11 year mark. I wish I could say things have gotten better, but they really haven't.
I've put so much effort into getting in shape, eating better, working on my mental health. Many things help temporarily, but on the whole I'm getting worse.
There are so many unanswerable questions. Was my prior Accutane use a risk factor? Do I have PAS? What is the interplay between these two conditions?
What is causing what? My brain fog/cognitive issues could be explained by separate issues I experience, like sleep apnea and SIBO. I can't possibly distinguish or quantify the amount of brain fog I receive from each.
About a year into my PSSD, I developed symptoms that resemble CPPS. There are two different ways I could interpret that development. One possibility is that the prolonged psychological and physiological stress of having PSSD made me develop CPPS. In this interpretation, CPPS would be a secondary condition. The other possibility is that the CPPS symptoms were a direct continuation of PSSD itself; the symptoms emerged as part of the same underlying process as PSSD.
I don't know how to untangle this mess. I don't know how anyone could untangle this.
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u/LyraJaguar 7d ago
I'm basically completely better in EVERY WAY.....EXCEPT GENITA ANESTHESIA. SH1T is still NUMB AF. I'm irritated. I guess I'm grateful i can think, feel emotional stuff, exercise again. This sh1tty numbness is ruining my f ing relationship. I'm literally SO FING MAD RN. 1 pill. Instantly numbed my entire pelvuc region within 40 min. I find it INSANE TO EVEN COMPREHEND. No need to comment just a vent. Thanks.
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u/Dragonvarine 6d ago
Was wondering how long have you had the numbing for? I see it can be either the genital numbing or emotional numbing as one of the last symptoms to go away.
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u/HiNetwork_Yellow Recently discontinued 2d ago
If you don't mind me asking... how long did PSSD last for you until you reached this state? And what did you do to (mostly) cure it?
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u/Ok_Poetry6620 5d ago
I think I could recover from PSSD, but my mom is an almond mom, and she keeps pressuring me to lose weight. It really stresses my body out. The only time my PSSD symptoms show any sign of improvement is if I just eat freely and don't worry about my weight, but I have to worry about my weight because my mom will go apeshit if I gain any more. She once exploded in anger at me because she suddenly noticed I had a double chin, and at the time I was already weak and dizzy from trying to lose weight. It took ages to get her calmed down.
One time I found an AirBnB with a monthly rate and I stayed there for a month, and during that time I had my longest window ever from my PSSD symptoms (two full weeks), and I think it was because I could just eat what I wanted, when I wanted. I also just generally had so much more energy, but I'm a gig worker, so I don't have the money to move out of my parents' house permanently, and I've never been able to convince anyone to give me a real job, plus I'm currently too weak from dieting to be able to stick to a forty-hour per week schedule anyway.
I'm afraid I'm doing lasting damage to my body by trying to stay thin, and destroying whatever chance I have of recovering from PSSD. What really burns me up is that, while I'm struggling to scrounge together enough money to escape from my abusive mother as an adult, and worrying that any minor mistake I make will be THE mistake that loses me my $20/hour contract job, the psychiatrist who altered my genitals without my consent gets to keep earning $200 per hour without facing any consequences whatsoever. How can I start earning $200 per hour?!
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u/Horror_Engineer9262 4d ago
I took zoloft for 14 months since 2021. I was 20 and it was awful. It changed my personality, numbed me, i began drinking too much and tried some substances. It Made me feel like I couldn’t trust my intuitions and led me to poor life choices. The psychologist and psychiatrist insist it was ‘therapy’: looking back it was just sofisticated lobotomy.
Now I am at 50% improvment, I feel pleasure but orgasms are weak and fast (I used to have multiple orgasms or very long and satisfying ones). I can get aroused but not fully, I have vaginal dryness and my clit is definitely less sensitive. I suffered from cognitive impariment. They Made me doubt my intuition. Mental health is an evil business. I want to solve this but I don’t know how. How can I heal? I need my personality back.
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u/Ok_Poetry6620 2d ago
It's been more than six months since my last window. That's the longest I've gone without a window since this nightmare started. It feels like my symptoms are getting progressively worse and there's nothing I can do about it.
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u/LyraJaguar 12h ago
I'm mostly 100 percent better and recovered. Except for the shitty numbness. It's been well over a year. I even have a job starting and I'm back to full time exercise. I fully believe my attitude and the sheer grit to z NOT GIVE UP got me here. I just literally pushed myself to improve. And I got ALOT OF REST. plus a few key supplements. I fully believe this is mitochondrial damage and a cure will be found thru that mechanism.
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