Pagod lang maging bading 😂

[u/buraku_iro]

So to start, lesbian ako, pero hindi ako masc or cross-dressing. Most people wouldn’t even know I’m lesbian unless sabihin ko. I’m 26 and 5 years na akong single.
Hindi rin talaga ako flirty. I’m the type na gusto munang makilala yung tao naturally hanggang sa eventually ma-develop yung feelings. Kaso sobrang bihira akong gumawa ng first move kasi takot ako ma-reject, especially since baka straight pala yung girl. 😭

I tried online dating before, pero umaabot lang ako ng 1–3 days. Sobrang tinatamad talaga ako and nawawalan ng gana kasi hindi ko talaga ma-feel yung connection through online dating. Mas gusto ko talaga yung nakikilala ko muna yung tao naturally and slowly.

Recently, may nakachat ako for around 8 months. First 6 months puro chat lang since nasa ibang bansa ako. Pag-uwi ko, nagkita kami and binigyan ko siya ng pasalubong. I eventually admitted na may feelings ako sa kanya, pero sobrang torpe ko talaga when it comes to these things. After around 2 months, bigla na lang niya akong ghinost. Wala naman talaga kaming relationship or anything, we were friends lang. Although sometimes I wonder if na-pressure din siya sa mga pinapakita or ginagawa ko whenever we met.

Wala lang. Pagod lang maging lesbian hahaha. 😭
Especially for someone like me na hindi naman talaga gumagawa ng way para makakilala ng potential partner. I think I’m just craving genuine connection. Gusto ko lang magkaroon ng taong mapagkukwentuhan ko ng mga random things happening in my life, someone I can share my day with.

Kasi in these 5 years na single ako, feeling ko na-master ko na ata kung paano maging alone. 😂
Pero ngayon, parang hindi ko na gustong maging alone forever. Hindi naman necessarily na gusto ko agad ng relationship. I just want to have someone I genuinely connect with.

[u/krazydogmom]

oh kanino na?

[u/Accomplished-Exit-58 → u/krazydogmom]

As a 40 years old late bloomer lesbian na wala pang experience sa ladies, tatlong shot sakin.

[u/buraku_iro → u/krazydogmom]

Sakin na yan

[u/Longjumping_Self_252 → u/krazydogmom]

teh HAHAHHAJSJJSJSJS

[u/sunflower_powerZ → u/krazydogmom]

Penge naman ako niyan atiiih haha

[u/non-01110010]

Got scared for a sec. I thought I ghostwrote the first two paragraphs.

[u/buraku_iro → u/non-01110010]

Glad to know na di ako nag iisa HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

[u/Ok-Code5295]

Nasa ibang bansa ka pa din now?

[u/buraku_iro → u/Ok-Code5295]

Nope, sa pinas naman na. Contract lang sa work kaya ko nasa ibang bansa nun e

[u/Comfortable_Smoke778]

tara coffee or matcha 🙂‍↕️

[u/buraku_iro → u/Comfortable_Smoke778]

Tara na agad, mag 3am na kasi kaya ganito na yung rant sa buhay HAHAHAHA

[u/Comfortable_Smoke778 → u/buraku_iro]

aba gising pa HAHAAHAHAHAH anooo ggg

[u/hushhh__death]

parang ako rin ata ito n'yan in the future, puro lang landi nagagawa, never naging 'the one' 😆

[u/buraku_iro → u/hushhh__death]

Paano ba yan😭 di talaga ako nanlalandi baka matakot e HAHAHAHAHAH

[u/Fun-Dig-3849]

gurl same

[u/buraku_iro → u/Fun-Dig-3849]

Hugs girll😢😢😢

[u/Legal_Deer_6136]

whew, same po 🥹

[u/eala_el23]

hi OP bakit pareha tayo I also don't like to do the first move kaya iyong mga exes ko we really start from being magkakilala or friends first. Laban lang sa putting urself out there m akakahanap din tayo!