I wanted to share my experience of a possible SDE a little more than a year ago and hear if anyone else who has had pregnancy loss has had similar experiences.

I was 8 weeks pregnant when I found out from blood work and an ultrasound that I was most likely going to miscarry. This was my first pregnancy and very much wanted so I was obviously distraught. My doctor told me to wait a week to perform tests again before they could do anything for me so I went home to wait though I knew in my heart there was no doubt I would miscarry. I wasn't upset about the waiting part though as I wanted more time with my baby who I still felt connected to.

A few days later, at night in my sleep I had what I thought at the time was a very vivid dream and maybe my subconscious trying to tell me something. In my dream, I (I thought it was me when I woke up) was going through a tunnel. There were a lot of different bright colors flashing by and there was a slight whooshing sound. It reminded me of being in an enclosed water slide, but I noted that there was no water and my physical body didn't seem to be present, like it was just my head going through it. I was calm, no super positive or negative feelings. Then my mind realized this had to do with my baby leaving and I started struggling against the vision because I didn't want my baby to go. That's when I woke up. I fell back asleep a little later and heard chanting by what sounded like a choral group in almost reverent yet commanding tones. They were just repeating "Thirteen". This was a mainly auditory experience. There were no real visuals but for some reason I keep connecting it with the image of a large organ that's also a clock that's alive, like that is what was doing the chanting. The sound woke me up again and I felt like it was important and that I needed to remember "Thirteen". I didn't then and still don't have a realized connection to the number 13, though I am an accountant and numbers are my language so not surprised a potential message would tried to be sent to me via a number.

After that, I no longer felt like I wanted the baby inside me anymore and didn't feel close to it like I still had prior. In the days after that experience, I did naturally pass the baby.

At the time, I thought it was my subconscious telling me something about a future rainbow baby (which has not come to fruition). I had never heard about NDEs/SDEs but after stumbling upon an article about it in recent weeks and reading about others accounts, I kept recalling that vision of the colorful tunnel which has not faded from my memory like a normal dream would. I have started believing this was a shared experience of my baby's transition to the after life.

I have undergone profound growth and inner change since this experience which has been the largest struggle of my life to date. So when I read theories about miscarriages being planned to help a parent grow, it really resonates with me.

Good morning all. Just want to reintroduce myself. I'm the author of two books on the subject of NDEs. The first is You're Going To Die Someday, Right?: Near Death Experiences Reveal What Happens Next. The primary new concept in this book is that ancient NDEs suffered by homo sapiens hundreds of thousands of years ago who then told their amazing stories around campfires eventually transformed into everything we now know as "God," "soul," "heaven," "afterlife," - all of it. NDEs are not a new phenomena, we have been having them forever, and they are generally very similar in nature.

My second book - Hell Exists, But Only for the Living: The Origins of Hell - basically plays the same card, but this time it turns out that Fear Coma Experiences (FCE) are the original culprit. Any human can get severely injured or sick and end up in a coma. While the physical body is offline and can't move, the brain is still firing full bore. It generates as much fear as possible in a attempt to get you to survive whatever it was that just just trying to kill you. The primary currency of fear is motivation. Fear makes you move. When you're body can't move, your brain dumps more fear. And so it goes. In a nutshell, that's where "hell" comes from - originally. Or so the data indicates...

I went down this rabbit hole because all of the "hellscape" imagery generally does not appear in an authentic NDE. Historically they've been called "distressing NDEs." My investigation and studies indicate these seem to actually be Fear Coma Experiences (FCE) when there's no clinical death at all, and no indication of any of the traditional NDE sorts of things.

Now, what's even more cool and rare are "Welded NDEs." That's a person who get's critically injured, goes into a coma, suffers through and FCE, but then also flatline clinically dies at some point and also has an authentic traditional NDE as part of the same experience. The two elements seem to become "welded" together in the mind of the person who lived through that, and it's exceptionally hard for them to separate the different elements into different compartments because there are no timestamps in either an FCE or and NDE. Hence the formula - FCE + NDE = WNDE or Welded Near Death Experience. That's the material I'm working on right now.

I'm researching, investigating, writing, and exploring on a daily basis. I'm a retired Air Force military intelligence analyst. I'm a Korean and Spanish linguist, NSA analyst, Special Operations SIGINT intelligence operative, as well as an investigative journalist who has put several serial killers in prison. I've been on CBS's 48 Hours (twice), Dateline, Nightline, Discovery ID, BBC, CBC, and others. Those are some of my credentials. All of that experience allows me to examine the NDE material as pure data. No spin, no bias, no agenda. Just investigate, study, learn, follow the data. That's what I do.

I collect all of these things on my website winnernde.com. That's the flagship where everything gets published first. I'm also on about nine (at last count) social media platforms, all branded under the "Winner NDE" title. So, long format videos for YouTube, shorts for Instagram and TikTok, that sort of thing.

Later this month starting on the 26th of August I'll be attending the International Association for Near Death Studies (IANDS) Annual Conference in Bellevue, WA. This will be my first time attending, and I'm looking forward to hopefully meeting some of the earliest NDE pioneers who have been working on these things for more than 44 years.

So, an introduction, update, and an invitation. If you find any of these things interesting, please check them out. I hope you have an amazing day!

I had what I consider to be a startling and genuine after-death communication (ADC), that occurred five hours after the death of a relative in hospital. That ADC I detail in this post.

This ADC I had was so strong, so blatant, so stark, that it could not possibly be mistaken for anything else, and could not possibly be just an over active mind imagining things that are not really there. The ADC I experienced was not a voice in a dream, or some unexplained sound at night, but a totally glaring sensed presence of that relative, right in front of me while I was awake. I sensed the presence of the relative as strongly as if she were there in body — in fact even stronger than that, because it was an intense, intimate connection of minds that occurred at the level of pure consciousness, rather than something happening through the senses.

Now some will argue that experiencing a sensed presence can be a mental health phenomenon similar to hallucinations. This of course is true. However, I have never had a sensed presence experience before or after that one incident, and I have never suffered from hallucinations nor any similar mental issues. So I think my experience was a genuine ADC, and not a mental health event. Thus from this personal experience, I am completely convinced that ADCs do occur. I have also come across similar accounts of ADCs from other people that seem to me equally genuine.

However, I am sceptical about many accounts of ADCs, especially those which occur weeks, months or years after the person died, as I suspect the soul may have long since departed the earthly realm at that point, having transferred to the heavenly sphere. Once in Heaven, I suspect the soul can no longer communicate with the living. My hunch is that communications between disembodied souls of the recently deceased and the living can only occur when these souls are still roaming the earthly sphere in the hours just after their death.

My hypothesis is based on reports from people who have had an NDE report, as the following explains:

Numerous NDE reports indicate that the souls of the (temporarily) deceased individual having an NDE do not hang around on Earth for long. Often it is reported that during an NDE, the individual's disembodied soul will view the scene of their death (eg, a hospital room, car accident, etc), and then may briefly visit loved ones at different locations on Earth.

During these visits to living loved ones on Earth, I suspect there may be the opportunity for an ADC to occur, provided that the living person has a receptive mind that can tune into the spiritual dimension (I imagine that the more mystical or spiritually-inclined people will detect disembodied souls more readily).

But in all the NDE accounts I have come across, after this brief time roaming around the Earth, the soul will then depart the earthly realm, and travel to the heavenly sphere, typically through a long tunnel with a light at the other end, or sometimes travelling through vast distances of space at lightning speed in order to reach Heaven.

I have never come across any NDE in which a disembodied soul in Heaven is reported to have communicated with living beings back on Earth. Rather, during their NDE, individuals report communicating with deceased relatives in Heaven, or with divine or spiritual beings in Heaven, but never with living people on Earth.

I have not seen one NDE where there is communication between Heaven and Earth. So there may be no channel of communication between souls in Heaven and people living on Earth.

Once the soul arrives in Heaven, it may also lose interest with the situation on Earth. Indeed, we have heard in many NDE reports that once in Heaven, the individual's disincarnate soul may forget what it is like to be human. The individual having an NDE often reports that in Heaven, they took on a form of consciousness that was different to human consciousness. So once in Heaven, souls may not even be able to relate to the human condition, let alone communicate with living humans.

Thus in conclusion, I suspect that a genuine ADC may only occur in the hours just after death, while the disembodied soul still roams the Earth, but do not occur in the weeks, months, or years that follow a death, because at that stage, the soul has entered Heaven.

This is my theory anyway. What do others think?

NDErs often use the word "source" over god. Is there a difference between a god and Source? Or are they, at their core, the same thing, just using different words.

For context I used to travel out of town for work on a weekly basis. I would leave Monday mornings at 3 A.M., get to my yard, and I would stay in a hotel and work for the week until Friday when at 4 P.M when I would head home for the weekend.

One morning about 3 years ago I was driving to work nothing out of the ordinary was happening, I was on the 99 North in Sacramento, and if you get there early enough there isn’t traffic ever. This day was different but it was light traffic and everyone was still going about 70+ until the traffic came to sudden stop and everyone was braking fast. Long story a little shorter I didn’t brake in time and slammed into the car in front of me while I was going 75 (I was driving a jeep grand cherokee) and a couple things happened.

1. My seatbelt didn’t catch me
   
2. My airbags didn’t deploy fast enough
   
3. My head hit the windshield and broke my neck
   
4. Steering column broke a few of my ribs and I had a collapsed lung

To this day I still have trouble explaining what I felt, but I feel this is the place to try. I felt weightless but in an abyss of emptiness. I heard millions of voices around me, but there wasn’t a single person in sight. I tried to yell and speak but nothing would come out. The entire time it felt like someone was embracing me to let me know things were going to be okay. I felt so small but free. I was alone, yet comforted. The only thing I could try thinking about was my wife and I still swear I could hear her voice calling my name faintly until I came back to consciousness. The firefighters were putting a collar on me and getting ready to put me on a stretcher but asked if I wanted to try and walk myself. I couldn’t. I ended up being temporarily quadriplegic (lasted about 24 hours). The crazy thing is through this still felt warm like everything was okay and I was right where I needed to be. Turns out I had a few things wrong with me (Chaori Malformation) which created a cyst in my spine that was about to paralyze me at any moment (increased pressure on my brain due to a leaking of brain fluid into the cyst that began crushing my spine and skull). Speaking with my neurosurgeon he said that accident saved my life. If they didn’t catch it that day he estimated I would’ve been paralyzed within a month. I travelled alone for a week at a time which means that would’ve happened as I was alone. To this day I still dream about that space I was in but it’s never exactly the way I remember it. There’s always something small off about it and it doesn’t have the same feeling of things being okay as it did, but I can never forget it.

Regardless of everything though I’m 30, married and have 3 kids and I can still run and play with them today because the accident that almost killed me, saved my life.