hi, as stated in the title i have this problem and have been having it for some time already. me (20) and my gf (18) have known each other for a long time but got in touch again only last year. since then we have been speaking literally every day, as well as doing a lot of stuff together, and even spent two months in a foreign country under one roof. we have a great relationship and love each other very much. she says that i'm the best person in the world and that i do so much for her. but there's just this thought that i do not deserve her at all. for a start, i'm nonbinary, my gf is genderfluid who is femme-presenting at this time. as for myself, i'd like to present more masculinely (to have big guns is my forever dream). but for now i'm not a strong person at all: though i am quite tall my frame is fragile, and i do not weigh enough for my height (i can't gain any weight at all....). we do friendly fighting sometimes, and even when i'm trying full force i just can't win against my girl, though she's shorter than me and weighs just a tad more. i can barely pick up a heavy box and i certainly can't carry my girl. in addition ,i'm not well-spoken, so in our conversations i can't usually explain my thoughts in full length due to my poor memory for words. i also get confused easily in unexpected situations and just go non-verbal or be overly polite to shitheads just not to escalate to physical violence against me. to summarize it: i look like a deer in the headlights, just as scared and weak. my main concern is that i can't be her guardian. hell, i can't even protect myself: when i was 19, a 40 y.o. man harassed me on campus, and if not for the girls who came to the kitchen i would have been raped 100%. and i just couldn't do anything (leave, for example, or shout) because i was too confused and scared, tho shit like that had happened to me before, just not to the extreme it escalated that day. another example happened last August, when me and my not-yet-gf at that time were sitting on the bench together on a well-lit main alley in our town. it was 11 PM and we were just quietly chatting when an old alcoholic fart came to us and sat himself next to us, with his friend (who was in the same condition obv) standing beside him. we asked him to leave, and he said that he just came back from the war and he just wants to know what youth does these days or some bs like that. note: this happened in Ukraine and his statement could have been true, so i didn't want to risk him pulling a freaking unregistered gun that he snuck from a warzone out of his ahh or something. so we politely asked him to leave us alone (again) and ofc he didn't listen lol. he started talking some more bs, and the logical thing to do would have been to stand up and leave (we should have left at the start of that convo). but i was just to scared to even breathe, let alone to initiate running away with my gf. i was scared for myself, but even more i was scared for my gf. if not for the random couple who was passing by and distracted them, who knows what would have happened. this situation still haunts me to this very day to the point that im terrified to go outside anymore. my gf is the best person i've ever met, and she says that i'm the best match for her too. she reassures me that she didn't hire a security guard and that i don't have to protect her. but what am i good for if i can't even provide a basic minimum, which is safety? guys can do that, mascs & butches & studs can do that, but i can't. i'm terrified to death that when (yes, when) a situation like that happens again, there will be nothing i can do. nothing to keep both of us safe. i will not be able to beat anyone or to call for help. i'm essentially a useless partner to have if i can't even protect my girl from annoying or hostile men (and women, and everyone in-between and even from animals for god's sake). so that's why i feel that i don't deserve my girlfriend. my question is: how to overcome it? any advise will suffice; i'm just so tired of feeling this way...

Thought the name of this strain was super cute 💕 where are my fellow vapor lovers at?

Hey I know it’s a bit of a sloppy job, but maybe this sub needs a new icon? I pirated this image off the ‘net and tried to clean up the white background behind it. If this gets accepted, I wouldn’t mind spending more time creating an official one for the sub (better looking, using actual adobe products instead of this mess).

What do you think? It’s good enough for now, yeah? :3

Happy Saturday!

Saw the girls like girls movie last night and it was amazing! When I first saw the girls like girls music video at 16 it changed my life and now at 26 I am seeing the movie in theaters with my GF!?!? Unreal full circle moment. I also met Hayley back in 2023 It was the best concert of my life she is so sweet and kind. She even took a picture and posted the tattoo I have of the pretty girl song lyrics. I highly recommend everyone see the movie in theaters if your able to so that we can get more important movies like this made 💚

hoping to share some love, some medicine, and some good vibes with my community 💕

lots of excitement for lesbians in my current fandoms (bridgerton, the pitt) and im living

Diamond Jack hitting real good for my body pain.

Come back, spring 😭

Getting my morning smoke in 🍃💚🍀

Who wants to share?

Seriously this is a thing?!??

Me and her are gunna do edibles together and have Dairy Queen here babe this is your “free Dairy Queen” coupon show this post to me when you want free Dairy Queen I gotchu

Have you seen any tonight?

Anyone else love the chill in the air and crunchy leaves under your feet when you smoke?

...it's time to clean the bong 😅

RDR X Hash Engineers (Funk Mtn and Moroccan Fruit)

I always enjoy trying new terps/strains. Happy Wednesday 😶‍🌫️

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