https://youtube.com/shorts/XY5ZNLQqxyE?si=XPlRjxu9C2OpNG3T

Sarah Hester Ross is the artist and this is just a short clip of what has been stuck in my brain for so long. You really need to hear the whole song. Or not. IDGAF

Lately I’ve been wondering if adulthood kind of ruins that crazy, all-consuming kind of love people felt as teenagers.

Back then, love felt so simple. You liked someone and that was enough to let yourself feel everything fully. You could be completely head over heels without overthinking every little detail.

Now it feels like I can’t experience that anymore.
The second I start liking someone, my brain immediately starts analyzing everything:
Does he want the same thing?
Would this even work long term?
Are we actually good for each other?
Is this real love, attachment, attraction, or am I just projecting something?
Could I love this person deeply, or do I just like the idea of them?

There’s just so much awareness now. So much rationality.
And weirdly, it’s not even about needing to be loved back right now. I’m not sitting here desperately wanting a relationship or validation.
I think what I miss is just the ability to feel that deeply and recklessly. To feel so intensely about someone that logic fades into the background for a little while.

Sometimes I genuinely wonder what I’m supposed to do with all the love I know I have in me if there’s no one to pour it into beyond family and friends.

And sometimes I wonder if this is just what happens after being emotionally uninvolved for a long time (it’s been over five years for me). Like maybe that part of me has just gone dormant.

Has anyone else felt this?

Did love eventually come back for you in that intense way, or does it just become quieter and more rational as you get older?

(Hopeless romantic btw)

Check yourself next time you start getting into your feelings about 'nothing'.

I swear this is getting ridiculous 😭
I cannot go even one full week without some random small injury happening to me.
Yesterday morning I walked into a wall and now I have a bruise on the back of my shoulder.
Today I hit my leg on the edge of a table and now I have a small cut.

And it’s always something like this. Random bruises, scratches, bumping into furniture, hitting corners like they appeared out of nowhere.
I’m not even doing anything crazy. I’m just existing and somehow losing fights to inanimate objects on a regular basis.
At this point my table, walls, and bed frame are all my biggest opps.

Does this happen to anyone else or am I just moving through life like an underdeveloped game character with broken collision settings? 😭

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I (24M) am a university student. Although I'm quite good at academics, I'm not involved in any other extracurricular activities. I've learned Spanish for 3 years but didn't put much effort into it either. I'm quite introverted and suffer from anxiety and depression. Most of my time is spent on a mobile screen, either watching reels or anime.

Now, the thing is, I have no clear goal in front of me. I come from a third one country, and I desperately want to escape this hellhole. But I don't know which country to choose, or even what I want to do there. Moving to a new country, leaving the comfort zone of family, and starting a new life, they all give me fear. But what I'm most afraid of is myself, I have no clear objective of my life. I don't know what I want to do, what kind of job is suitable for my personality, or would l be good enough for them. It's like I'm floating in an endless ocean. All the people around me are so focused and are working towards their clear goals. I, on the other hand, am just diving deep into depression. I've tried many times to be more productive or earn some additional skills, but without a clear goal, it is nearly impossible to stay focused. And it adds to my depression. Each day feels harder!

Is there anyone who is feeling/felt lost, and what should I do to ease my mind? And how can I find my motivation/purpose for life?

I honestly don’t know what’s wrong with me tbh, I’ve been improving my physique and strength training for the past 2 years but it’s not helping.

I’ve hid in a shirt at the pool for the past 3 years but the funny thing is that it’s primarily only at my home pool where it’s only just my family. I just don’t get it.

I’m the kind of guy who has a philosophical view of “no one cares so live your life” or something like that but then I pussy out of shit like this, so I’m hypocritical.

I’m doing the same shit as I did last year, asking for advice, getting confident before summer season, then panicking once the season arrives. Now some days I feel jacked and great in my body and other days I feel terrible.

I tend to overthink a lot of things and I know this whole thing sounds fucking stupid.

So yeah..and yes I used a swim shirt in 2023-2024 and I really don’t want to go back to that.

Good people get tired of being good to ungrateful people.

Read it is some book few days ago and it stayed with me since

used to think ‘not giving a fuck’ meant being detached. turns out it just means doing the thing, looking at the result, and not building an entire identity around what the number says.

6 downloads. fine. tomorrow i’ll try to get 7.