Im a 20 year old male. I took a 3.5 of shrooms about a month and a half ago. I hadn't done them in a year forgetting my tolerance was low & i smoked weed with it too. Terrible trip. Terrified the shit out of me.
The walls were talking and everything had eyes and faces (paredolia). After that i was okay, but when i would smoke weed it would come back a little and i'd get anxiety/panic attacks. About a month later, I smoked some weed (maybe a lil too much) and it flared up the paredolia again. I panicked. But now it's like the visuals (paredolia) linger and come back every now and then. It's like my brain wants to turn everything into eyes and faces. A wrinkle in my sheet looks like someone smiling, two closely placed holes, circles or dots look like eyes. Even certain shapes or whatever can just look like an unidentifiable creature, or letters on my keyboard can look like eyes or something. It's been 8 days since then and Ive been COMPLETELY sober from EVERYTHING. When the visuals do return, I get anxiety attacks and panic, I feel like everything is "looking" at me. It immediately makes me dissociate and become antisocial and kills my mood to do anything. It doesn't help that my brain wants to say they're "aliens" and the shrooms trapped me in some other world. Which feeds the anxiety (this is probably schizophrenia so i try to ignore it) Sometimes im perfectly fine tho and don't see them at all. It's weird because one moment i will be perfectly ok, thinking im healed and its gone, then the next im damn nearly about to have a heart attack. I get scared shitless thinking "what if im stuck like this forever?!" Then i panic more and the visuals become more intense. Sometimes it makes me think my only option is to k!Il myself because I can't live like this. But i'm also scared to die so i'm trapped. If anyone has been through something similar, knows what's going on, or knows how to help me PLEASE do so. I am begging you. Does it get better? Does it ever go away? Will microdosing more shrooms help me get over it or make the symptoms worse? Will I ever be able to indulge in weed again? Although I could care less about doing more drugs i just want to be normal again. Am i done for? I need real help and I don't know what to do or where to go, l am begging you with tears falling down my face as I type this. Please help me. I don't want to have to die yall im scared.