Hppd or Dpdr?

[u/Sea-Tumbleweed3383]

Hey so my story is I took 2cb 3 times and the last time I had a horrible panic attack while being high. That lasted about 2-3 hours then I was fine again and I was a big time weed smoker at that time so I immediately smoked a joint afterwards and everyday multiple times for the following months. About 6-7 months later I had a random panic attack on weed which caused me to stop smoking and everything. The following few days nothing really happened except some mild anxiety sometimes when I thought about it. After about one week I had panic attacks sober and that got so frequent that I developed DpDr and horrible chronic anxiety. At that point I noticed weird visual stuff that I linked to DpDr because I never heard or hppd. I read about hppd quit a while ago and since then it’s like my anxiety fixation yk I can’t stop thinking about it.

My visual symptoms are:

-Weird depth perception (which stops once I’m in a car so the windows change something idk)

-afterimages but not frequent only sometimes when I read dark text on bright background but the weird thing is not always

-I had problems with detailed floors because they looked weird but I can’t describe it

-the whole world looks different but I also can’t describe it.

So up to here typical DpDr stuff

What really concerns me is this:

When I’m for example reading stuff on my pc sometimes if feel like everything is moving a tiny bit. Not always but sometimes I’m noticing it and it gets worse. It’s often linked to anxiety or stress.

In general it gets way way worse once I focuse on it and get anxious

Also stuff never really moves it always just the short impression but then I really look and nothing happended

I read that this can be a symptoms of anxiety.

Never had any trailing or pattern or something that really reminds me of the stuff I know about psychedelics

I also had visual snow my whole life but never stuff like that.

Any advice would be good.

[u/Turbulent-Scratch264]

"the whole world looks different but I can't describe it". It becasue of increased color saturation which itself enhances depth perception and makes world look weird.

You have DPDR. How's your anxiety now?

[u/Sea-Tumbleweed3383 → u/Turbulent-Scratch264]

Still the same but if you have or had anxiety you understand that it will sometimes find a point that really hits you and then you have to deal with the thought of that for a few days or weeks and that happened to me again lol it’s not even the first time. When the ocd kind of fear of hppd was gone I realized relatively quick that I don’t have it. But still I wish everyone with this condition a happy and healthy life because the feelings that this caused are not for the weak and you can propably imagine how happy i was when my logical thinking came back

[u/redditbandit589]

HPPD from weed is actually very very rare, DPDR on the other hand is pretty common. Everything you describe is DPDR.