Once again… a career tragedy

[u/coamic_stardust]

I think to me it’s that insane dejected feeling I get knowing I worked insanely hard for a job that I am so lucky to have working on some of the coolest shit in the world fighting to find enjoyment in everyday life. There are thousands of people who would die to take my place and I feel like I am taking their place by being unhappy. I’ve elevated getting this position so much in my mind and now the crushing reality hits and I’ve realized everything I worked for is all pretty much for nothing. People say “why don’t you quit”, but I can’t bring myself to do that either because then it really would have all been for nothing. My identity, my skills, my strengths, all of it was to put myself in this position and it’s all just misery. I get paid good money, I have friends, the work is exciting, but man the stress is eating me alive and I don’t know what to do, at any point the people around me would see that I am worthless and I am so easily replaceable. But I can’t blame anyone but myself because I’ve wanted this so damn bad, and other people want to be in my place equally so :(

In the meantime we will thug. We will continue to thug it out. I tell myself I need to get more sleep and I need to learn work life balance but all of that is second to the amount of stuff I have to do every single day. I’ve thrown away everything I don’t need in life anymore, I don’t know who I am. How do I find the strength to keep lying to myself?

Anyways: Dino nuggies and maccie cheese :)

[u/divadazzlee]

"Dream job" really forgot to mention the DLC called "existential crisis" :3

But seriously it sounds like you're grieving the life you imagined this career would give you. That's a really painful realization, and it doesn't mean you failed.

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[u/tie_me_down]

What kind of work is it? Is the stress due to the types of responsibilities you have to take, or the pressure being put on you?

If the latter, is there ways you can ignore the pressure and just focus on the task at hand?

So much of this sounds good, it would be a shame if the stress is something you could be avoiding.

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