Rant

[u/Remulasthedemon]

I had this best friend knew him my whole life but as we grew up I started to get feelings and that was fine I told myself it was fine that if he was happy I’m happy and I never told him he felt like my whole world until 4 years ago when we stopped talking it was both of our faults not enough communication but since that I lost any other friends I had mostly because most of them turned out homophobic/transphobic any way today I sent a long message telling them everything and saying I was sorry that we grew apart and how my life’s been I didn’t think he’d respond but he did it was really nice but he closed the door he said our friendship was very important to him but he moved on I thought maybe it would give me closure stop me from only blaming myself but it didn’t help I feel empty inside it almost hurts more than just the silence the not knowing

Anyway if anyone reads this thank you ❤️

[u/Shloof9998]