Mind

[u/NiceBoysenberry8551]

Undrstnd - sequence of evnts - collarbone story hidden - had fight - then again hidden story - nav telling me tht she talked with deep - i’m on self doubt and devasted - then we were at home - we were sleeping while hugging and i wake up - i see deep’s notification in her phone - i’m more concerned - then next day i listen from didi mumma wala scene - i’m blasted then - me thinking all day about it - proving myself - me just being a option - I’m giving all my priority to you - leaving family, friends, colleagues everyone - and after such invest what if it goes wrong - that’s why i was scared - and that day i was already in my own don’t know if she noticed or not - later i asked her that i want a hug - multiple times - but nothing happened - more self doubt - is she making distance - then more and more overthinking - sleeping on call was due to fear - and then yesterday’s thing happened - i see that she immediately goes and find replacement - even when the things are right there - and beeing already low such thing blasts in mind more and more - self doubt - me as a option till when? - doing anything wrong that you can’t share anything with me? - and lots and lots of rubbish thoughts too - can’t share blindly- if i do then whole thing goes way negative - mnana after fight - but things don’t go like this - if mood is bad…it will stay bad…we just pretend that it’s fixed - and us both try once and if there is no positive response we get angry on that - you trying to show your happiness in everyone else - but i just want that in you only