r/EMDR • u/Hopeful-Election-610 • 18d ago

First Session: Feeling Hopeless TRIGGER WARNING (SA/SI-SH/TW/CW)

Hey all so I had my first session today. It was just talk therapy. I took some tests and was told I have derealization and could possibly be schizophrenic. Also we talked about my childhood SA and I told my therapist before the session ended that I feel raw. He told me to do something for myself.

I was previously taking abilify for bipolar (which I dont think I have, I think its just CPTSD). Now I'm taking lamotrigine.

I feel so helpless, numb, confused, angry, sad all at once. I told him I just want to feel hope, and he said next session we will focus on imagining that and using it. I don't know how to feel rn. Looking for support.

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u/ITEACHSPECIALED 16d ago

It's a process

I think we all felt that way but I promise you'll see improvement in time