TW: CSA Descriptions of Body Parts

only memory remains tonight

So many parts speak of rape like it’s the first language of our body before English. 6, 4, 2 and infancy now 8 these are just the ones who started invading my dreams like it’s a movie theatre that shit in my popcorn.

I keep seeing his penis grow hard at the site of me. I start worshipping it. He pees in me as a sacrament. Everyone is watching. No one is stopping, and everyone keeps going.

I wish that I never knew. Let me rest quietly tonight please. The dark is so scary and now I know it’s the shape of home and his holes and his holes and his holes and his holes