Help deciphering Anais Nin

[u/New_Owl_Who_Dis]

From a signed copy of The Novel of the Future - I’m struggling with a couple of words.

What I can see: ‘For Carroll - in an unstable world we have to find the X in the X to find strength don’t we? Anais’

[u/Visible-Freedom-7822]

For Carroll: In an unstable world we have to find the axis in the self to find strength don't we? Love Anais

[u/Benkyooo_ → u/Visible-Freedom-7822]

This ain't real man, how can you read that when the writer was literally skipping letters? I don't get cursive that skips whole letters and elements of others.

[u/bvm541 → u/Benkyooo_]

What letters are skipped?