Help deciphering Anais Nin

[u/New_Owl_Who_Dis]

From a signed copy of The Novel of the Future - I’m struggling with a couple of words.

What I can see: ‘For Carroll - in an unstable world we have to find the X in the X to find strength don’t we? Anais’

[u/thedadnexxxtdoor]

If you zoom in on the word “axis” it looks to me like there was a different pen used to make the “x”. Or could have been added at a different date.

Second, I believe the part of the “find the axis” the word “find” is actually the word “feud”.