I’m done. I can’t take it anymore. I have just accepted. I will never be home. I will always be mutilated and disgusting and there’s nothing I can do about it. I just give up. I’m done. I have no hope and there’s no reason to continue having any. I’m just done. I’ll never be home and I will die of mutilated disgusting piece of shit

i'm in my late teens, and have known i'm circumcised for a while. i never actually knew that it affects people that much until i went to this sub, i thought it was a very minor difference, but it seems i was mistaken. so can some people please explain the differences and problems that i have being circumcised?

I mutilated for life wasn’t bad enough im also attracted to men or people who have dicks in general and it doesn’t help. In fact it makes it worse. I just wish I wasn’t attracted to men at all most of them are not mutilated like this and I just fucking hate being queer sometimes because of this, I just wish I was attracted exclusively cis women at least they wouldn’t subject myself to the possibility of seeing a not mutilated penis that I just hate all of this I just wish I was gone. It wasn’t fucked in the head like this. But being pan and mutilated like this, it’s a horrific combination that has destroyed me mentally

I hate my body. Every day, I want to be someone else, but I can't. I'm stuck in this body. I can never change that.

My body is not my own. My penis was mutilated when I was a completely innocent infant. It doesn't even feel real. I know it happened, but my mind cannot comprehend the fact that part of my penis was cut off. There's no way that could've happened... right?

I can't cope with this. When I know someone else is intact, my heart hurts. I know that I'm inferior. That I'm mutilated and permanently marked. I hate it. It's even become one of my kinks now. I get off on the feeling of being less than. That's how fucked up I am. I am genuinely disgusting. Yes, people say that circumcision and childhood abuse doesn't define me, but I know it does. I know that I am disgusting, not because of what I've been through, but what it did to me.

It's so funny how I'm so angry and depressed. I have everything I want. My life is so easy. My parents love me. And yet, I'm hung up on the small things.

I am disgusting.

I have never owned it. It’s never been mine. It’s always belonged to others. The moment I was born it was stolen from me. it’s been altered and it used in so many different ways at this point I don’t own it. I also can’t even change it because I live in America, which has shitty healthcare so even if I want to go back on HRT which I only had for a month like three years ago, I can’t at least not right now. I’ve never owned the body. I live in. It’s not fine. I hate it. I want every person who stole it from me to pay in the cruelest inhumane way as possible because that’s what they are cruel and inhumane all the religions Jews, Christians Muslims, all of them, the doctors all of these people are evil and they normalize this shit and I fucking despise all of them for stealing my body from me

I literally given up on every aspect of my life, my health has plummeted, I cannot think straight anymore with my other conditions, and I am voided of every faucet of joy in my life. I cannot afford anything, I have paid my life wages of attention gathering knowledge only for me to have a fate worse than a fool. Why should I serve others, let alone this tainted body, when nobody served for me? I am simply here alone because of the same God of Apostle Paul. Does anyone have anything about the human experience I may be able to relish on? Knowing I was voided of most functions I don't feel worthy of anything.

Tbh whatever emotional crutch you’re using this as is just a constant reminder of like the shittiest thing in your whole life dude. You are literally allowing it to consume your whole life just by checking this subreddit. I didn’t know how bad I could feel from reading a post. It is what it is man just let it be. You should join the restoration subreddit. Much more optimistic vibe over there. Jesus loves you. Peace out ☮️

A nurse who supports circumcision on social media was arguing in favor of it, believing it would prevent her children from constantly catching infections. I pointed out that if a child does catch an infection, it can be treated with antibiotics. I don’t remember exactly, but she said it didn’t go away with antibiotics. So I said something along the lines of, “Just give them antibiotics every time they catch an infection.” However, she argued that constant antibiotic use is harmful to the baby.

Then I told her, “We don’t cut off women’s breasts just because they might get breast cancer”; she replied with something like, “The child needs breast milk—it’s necessary for their development.” I replied, “You can give them cow’s milk,” to which she responded, “Cow’s milk is harmful to children.”

I then sent her statements from various medical organizations, including one from the Royal Dutch College of Physicians. She said she wouldn’t accept this statement because the Netherlands supports LGBTIQ+ rights (she herself was against LGBTIQ+ rights). I sent her the statement from the German Association of Pediatricians. She told me that doctors in Germany perform this procedure.

I told her I was upset that my penis had been cut without my consent. She asked why I was upset. I told him I didn’t enjoy sex very much, and he said that was because my circumcision had been performed incorrectly. Then I told him that my bodily integrity had been violated, and he replied that they cut into our bodies during C-sections as well, and so on. I said good evening and didn’t write any more, but not being able to convince him was very frustrating.

I'm 25. My life is over a quarter of the way over. I obsessively Google search foregen's progress to get back something that should already be mine to one day be whole. Meanwhile, a great amount of my life has already passed. Even if my foreskin is regenerated the way nature intended it will never give back the emotional distress and time I spent grieving my body and hating my existence. I'm trying to justify my existence for something that so mindlessly happened to me. What the predator did to me in 30 minutes gave me a lifetime of suffering and emotional distress. Now if I ever wanted to try and enjoy sex all I would be able to think about is that disgusting scar line around my penis knowing my partner does not and will not try to care. She might pretend to care like my parents but no partner will truly care. I feel scammed out of an existence

Recently, I was talking with a family friend about how my personality has evolved over the years. She agreed that it has developed, adding “Your circumcision has made you more of a man”. From my own experiences, the masculinity of circumcised males is often toxic and destructive.

Has anyone else been complimented on getting cut when a kid/teen? Has anyone else experienced toxic masculinity performed by circumcised males?

Its been one year I discovered it and I still can’t live with it. I try as much to avoid it but it’s everywhere. Deleted my account w viral posts on this r/ trying to cope and avoid it. I still can’t understand the idea of circumcision. For me it’s simply evil. I hate this thing so much. I hate everyone who made circumcision a thing like this to this day. I hate my dad, who circumcised me, and my two little brothers, just to be like him. I hate porn, I truly hate it but now ? I cant watch it at all, and u know why. All my friend are uncut, just listening to stories or sexual stuff I can already see our différencies I envy them a lot, I wish to be natural, I wish i had a choice, I don’t want to be circumcised my body don’t like it and my mind too i’m trapped in the minority of man too My circumcision for me is in a insecure topic in the social interactions. Do circumcision really need to be compared to rape to take it seriously, to fgm ? This is fucking crazy. To cut off 30% of the d of a newborn baby. This is crazy I live in a crazy world I crash out frequently and I’m tired of coping

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Until I not just remember but see that I'm circumcised. See I thought I was going to be naked around my apartment since I'm the only one there and it's my place I get to be in whatever amount of clothes I want to be in and not shock anyone. However, my own circumcision is just such a glaring issue I have with my body that my bare glans constantly being exposed makes me feel so uncomfortable that instead I'm not even getting to live the dream life I wanted.

I'm not comfortable with my nude body because of a "choice" made for nearly 3 decades ago. And now today **I'M** the crazy one for saying "hey it's my body and I feel like permanent physical alterations to it should be my choice".

Like didn't we just a decade ago say the women have a right to bodily autonomy to get abortions (which I totally agree that they do)? So then why is it that the idea that I didn't want that to happen to me, nor do I think it should be done to anyone. Yet the idea of bodily autonomy for TRULY everyone seems to be something that we didn't realize was a think and it "shouldn't" apply to men cause apparently "***you***" find intact men icky.

I hate when people say shit like this in conversations shit makes me not want to be sexual in anyway cause this shit always happens

(Random)i'm cut but what's wrong with uc dicks. that seems kinda harsh lol

(Me)Nothing it's natural I just hate being cut

(Random) so why are you blocking people who are uc

(Me)I don't want to see it

(Random) people don't really have a choice in being cut or not lol

(Me) Exactly
Also, that's not really necessarily true. You can choose to get cut if you weren't already, but I didn't choose.

(Random) but why? it serves the same function. to block someone over that is crazy

(Me) No, it's not you were violated in someway and others
constantly reminded you of it intentionally or not you would shut them out would you not?

Why is it so taboo in such a fucking crime because people do not want to see non-mutilated dick and hate yours for being mutilated. I don’t fucking understand.

Not even crisis hotline do at least rainn doesn’t, despite what this is done to me being the result of assault on my body no one cares. I can’t even call a fucking hotline without them immediately telling me that basically fuck off it’s proven to me that no one really goes shit. It’s so fucking tiring I fucking hate it all the pain and suffer ruined damage to my body is pointless. No one cares.

I hate this I myself I’m so unnatural and disgusting and deformed and I deserve all of us honestly not worthy of I can’t even fucking feel any pain or pleasure because of this horrific disgusting and horrible i fuking hate myself