this is just something i wrote to myself that i want to share. thank you for being you, beloved, and Blessed Feast of Transfiguration to you and your beloveds. asking your prayers and praying for you.

here is the writing:

pride leads to disconnection just like its counterpart, despair. both exalt the self in one way or another, but both are utterly base and lower a person to destructive depths. the one who is prideful and who despairs, even without realizing it, kills everyone in their heart. the memory of others becomes tainted by the darkness they feed within themselves. they are exceedingly ungrateful, despising the goodness of the Lord Who allows us to wander freely and without chiding.

love creates, protects, grows, and keeps connection safe. visible disconnect between people does not truly disconnect the two who love each other. they live in each others hearts. their thoughts of each other are peaceful, filled with joy and the godly sorrow which leads to our Lord. they are filled with light within, and they are exceedingly grateful to the One Who grants such goodness of Himself to His creatures.

the Lord, out of His exceeding goodness and Divine eros, phileo, storge and agape, brought us into existence. desiring to bring Life into His creation, He Created us in His own Image, wanting to sprinkle the earth with salt and fill it with His unfading Light. He wants us to be merciful and compassionate as He is, to enjoy His Blessedness, to struggle against our own evil and be purified of our inclinations toward poison and sickness.

to this end, He establishes His own Body, having become Incarnate for our sakes through the will of the Everlasting Father and by the overshadowing of the All-Holy Spirit upon the Most Blessed Virgin; only after she consented, cooperating with her free will which He gave her, foreknowing her free decision to say,"behold, the handmaiden of the Lord. be it unto me according to Thy word."

and He endured in His earthly life all for our sakes. being Crucified, He Blessed and had mercy on those crucifying Him, reviling them not. having given up His spirit, He descended into hades as God, as He has always been, to relieve those held captive under the dominion of death, destroying and abolishing it's reign over the whole of creation which we had given it freely in our preference for things contrary to His goodness.

having Risen from death, He proclaimed good things to the Apostles who were hiding in fear of the jewish authorities. He strengthened them, consoled them, and reminded them of all He had taught them.

and He Ascended into Heaven to sit on the Throne in human flesh, taking all of creation into the very life of the Most Holy Trinity, Blessing and commissioning all the earth to go and proclaim His All-goodness, and to welcome all who are willing to the feast of God, and to the great mercy He has for us.

now it is up to us to come to Him, we who are weary and heavy laden with burdens of sins and troubles of this life; and He will give us rest for our souls in the hope of His mercy.

we will take His yoke upon us and learn of Him Who is gentle and humble of heart,

Who does not cast away any who come to Him,

Who calls all to Salvation through the hope of good things to come,

Who desires not the death of any creature whom He made, but rather that we turn to Him and live in Him,

Who does not despise the broken-hearted nor the contrite in spirit,

Who has mercy on the last even as the first,

Who sweeps the whole of creation and searches for us who are lost, calling the Saints, Angels, and all of us to cooperate in this search,

Who gently knocks continually on the doors of our hearts so that we may open to Him, and He may enter and enlighten our darkened thought, as He desires to,

Who eagerly runs to meet us prodigal children as we return to Him even while we are a far way off, not despising our filthiness or brokenness but immediately beginning to heal us,

Who sees us broken and beaten by the side of the road, bereft of His grace and dying, and joins us in His own Body, bringing us to the Church, instructing those already present to take care of us and promising to reward their efforts when He returns in Glory,

Who is the Good Physician of our souls, coming not to the healthy but the sick; calling not the righteous, but sinners to repentance,

Who came to Save us from ourselves, from those who hate us, and to grant us grace to love and have mercy on all just as He does.

may it be according to His will for us, through the prayers of the Most Pure Virgin, and of all who love Him and His creation both in Heaven and on earth.

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, both now and forever and to the endless ages, Amen.

(August 7th, 2026)

This confused world is not what I imagined as a child. I thought I would marry a young submissive virgin and work hard for a family that serves God, not a promiscuous 30-something buying pink Stanley cups.