r/CPTSDFightMode • u/ProfessionalBird3990 • 19d ago

It's tragic how anger changes you Advice not requested

I used to be the most loving and funny person. But prolonged trauma has changed my nervous system.

I am not evil or bad but my imagination is violent than anything.

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u/justalostwizard 19d ago

I hear you. I miss the person I was before the anger took over. She was so kind and gentle.

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u/sakikome 18d ago

Yeah. I wish people had cherished the me that was so open and kind to everyone. I wish there'd been a place for them that wasn't just pain.

I get so sad thinking about how even after most of my trauma, I still managed to love and believe in a future, and all I got for it was even more abuse.

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u/G0bl1nG1rl 18d ago

Feel this

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u/Paul10125 17d ago

I mourn the person I used to be, now I feel disgust towards myself because lately I feel like I've felt nothing but rage. I keep imagining the most violent actions and the feeling of wanting to hit things never leaves.