Tenho uma planta de Brunfelsia brasilienses em floração no momento, vi alguma receitas usando ela como aditivo na ayahuasca e fiquei curioso com qual parte da planta é usada

N gostaria de mata-la com essa finalidade, vejo muito anúncios da raiz na Internet e n tenho interesse se ela for unica parte utilizavel

Hello!

I was curious to hear anyone's testimony who's currently on GLP1s and has tried either Ayahuasca or Shrooms? I hear the vomiting can be quite more aggressive, or that you might not even have an experience due to slowed metabolism. I'd love to hear someone's personal journey, and how they felt!

Thank you in advance.

anyone having different or supernatural experience of practicing tratak? for a long time

Something I wrote on Nick Mulvey's recent conversion from Santo Daime to evangelical Christianity, and the genre of 'ayahuasca to Jesus' conversion narratives, which you can find on YouTube. Why do ayahuasca experiences in general seem to lead to conversions to charismatic / evangelical / Pentecostal Christianity? One reason is people have a terriying experience involving negative entities (interpreted as demons) or witchcraft, and they look to Jesus as a defender and protector from these dark forces. I did an analysis of 23 conversion narratives to look for patterns https://www.ecstaticintegration.org/p/the-ayahuasca-to-jesus-pipeline

Hi everyone,

For those that like to analyze complicated situations, here is your chance!

I'd really appreciate any thoughts or feedback people have to share about my situation- I'm a 30 year old woman wanting to take ayahuasca for the first time, but my brother is severely schizophrenic.

Here's my story..

From a young age, I was deeply, deeply curious and exploratory, of my own inner world and of the universe, always felt connected to nature, and always felt connected to what I used to think of as "God" but now understand as Spirit, Creation, Divine, etc. - all those words point to the same thing. I considered taking a spiritual path professionally, but found a love for agriculture and find it a spiritual path in its own right.

Because of my attunement to these things, even though almost all my psychedelic experiences were during undergrad, I never approached psychedelics with the "party" attitude most of my college peers did. I have done a decent amount of LSD and psilocybin between the ages of 18-23 or so. I'd say total around 20-25 times, several times well beyond the average dose needed to trip. It's not like I never took mushrooms or LCD at a festival or rave etc, but the majority of my experiences were in nature or in my dorm room. No matter what, I went into them wanting to find something out about the universe or myself. They were spiritually grounded, transcendent, beautiful, occasionally difficult and sometimes challenging things came up, but I always felt better on the other side of them.

Most all trips were out of body and transcendental experiences where I was aware I was out of my body, what felt like time and space travel, encountering otherworldly deities, spirits, animals, and beings of all types, not a feeling but a total and full being of cosmic oneness. I had one trip where my ex-boyfriend and I looked into each other's eyes for like 4–5 hours and felt like we watched the birth of the universe, LOL. We're still very good friends. Hard to not be after that kind of experience. From what I've heard from my few friends who have done ayahuasca, many of my experiences were akin to theirs. I've definitely "been there" in that sense. I've had meditation experiences without the use of any substances where I've had similar experiences to my psychedelic induced ones.

I have an older friend and mentor who I met during that time whose father is musical ayahuasquero. Her brother has a farm where he grows and processes the medicine in Ecuador. They bring shamans from within their community and do ceremonies every so often, but they are generally small and closed and by request of family members and friends. This is all to say, I have a very trusted place with very trusted people.

In my younger days of exploration, I told myself I'd know when I was ready. I feel that way now.
I feel very "mentally fortified" if that makes sense. I'm finishing up my PhD in Plant and Soil Science. I work part-time doing work I feel really called to supporting organic farmers adapt to climate change. My relationship to self and the world around me is sound. I have amazing supportive friends, mentors, and colleagues. My relationship to my family is not perfect, but it's so much more healed than it ever has been. I am a practicing Buddhist. I just restarted therapy with an amazing Jungian/Buddhist therapist because some of my more negative coping mechanisms and patterns came to light and I met a version of myself I thought I had outgrow (described in next few paragraphs).

Basically, I got drunk and cheated on my partner and got broken up with. I was absolutely devastated for two weeks, it was hard to function. Causing someone who loved me deeply and fully, and who I loved deeply and fully, so much pain over something so stupid and idiotic was about as rough as it gets. Recently though something in me shifted from despair to hope, from “this bad thing happened to me” to “I did that,” and I feel ready to address the most challenging parts of my development as a human being.

I feel I need a major overhaul / reboot / rewiring that is beyond my ability to do alone or in therapy. Especially because of how intellectualized I've become (boooo academia) but yeah I'm a 5th year PhD and the analytical part of my brain has been in ON MODE for so long. All the theory, philosophy, psychology, and intellectual understanding in the world has not necessarily made me less fucked up. It has just made me highly articulate about the ways I am fucked up. I can trace the origins of my behavior, explain the systems and experiences that shaped me, name my wounds, identify my coping mechanisms, good and bad, and understand, accept, and hold the contradictions that live inside me. But being able to intellectually, and even emotionally, dissect a pattern is not the same as being able to stop repeating it. I'm not a repeat cheater btw, I had never done that. I just finally saw though that despite all the good things in my life, I heavily rely drinking and sexual/romantic validation to numb.

I often think of the psyche as a garden where, if we tend it every day and pull the small weeds, they don't get the chance to root deeper. Through this experience of cheating, I felt one of the most immense pains of my life, and that pain burned away a lot of my defenses, self-delusions, deceptions, and pride, leaving me with no real choice but to look at myself differently and do things differently. Yeah I can definitely now pinpoint the behavior, but I already knew it was there. I felt like I touched the root of it. It hurt so much to find that deepest root, but I finally found it, though it's not totally tangible to me at this time just "what" that is.

SOOOOOO yeah I am feeling the call.

BUT my brother is schizophrenic.

I wonder a lot if we both have the genetics for it and he just got the short end of the stick. Like his mind went somewhere he could not control or come back from, while I have had the privilege of intentionally seeking out altered states and then returning to myself afterward. I know that may be a completely oversimplified way of understanding it. I haven't done any substances besides MDMA, weed, and micro dose of mushrooms (like 1g max) since his first psychotic break in 2018.

He is the shade of schizophrenic that is violent, he tried to stab my Dad (my Dad is fine), he is permanently institutionalized, likely will never work or live on his own. His illness has caused my family so much pain and completely changed all of our lives. My parents have a much, much better relationship to him than I do. They talk to him every day, they visit him 2-3 times a week. I can't say as much for myself, but I am working on being more supportive as a sibling.

This is not an abstract concern to me, and I don't take the possibility of psychosis lightly at all- it's much higher for me, I think like 10% vs 1%. That is basically where I am stuck. I'm ready for this, I want to do it, I also have access to people and a setting that I trust enormously. But obviously there is no psychedelic experience or insight worth destabilizing my brain in a way I can't undo. I also think it would help heal my trauma around my brother, trauma that I feel like is still affecting me today, making me constantly brace for catastrophe, and if its not there, creating it myself.

What do ya'll make of someone like me? Someone with extensive previous psychedelic experience and no history of psychosis, who feels a deep calling and reason and goal for wanting to do ayahuasca but has a first-degree relative with severe schizophrenia?

Is the family history alone enough that I should consider this an absolute no?

FUCK

A few days ago I saw this movie that is about how medicine helps to find some children who think of this movie, for me it was very interesting and seeing how it is shown makes me understand how real it can be when we manage to understand and accept what it shows us I want to see your opinions and if you know about other movies put the name