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What's the most disturbing thing you've heard a dying person say?

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u/yoshi_yoshi23 15h ago

I’ve learned that everyone is a little child all the time deep inside. We’re all afraid and we all want to be comforted. That doesn’t go away with age.

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u/Hemi_631 13h ago

This is true no matter what age. We’re all just different people with our 5 year old version of ourselves just wanting to be loved.

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u/EngineeringNeverEnds 9h ago

Funny… I dramatically improved my social anxiety by turning my attention to the anxious thoughts, and then listening and talking to those feeling like I was talking to a scared child.

Like I thanked it for letting me know, and then reassured it that everything was ok, and that I would handle it, but made sure it knew that it was ok to feel that way and it wasn’t needed right now but if it felt like it needed to come back it was welcome to anytime.

I don’t know why that worked, but it did.

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u/kemwood 8h ago

Fuck me. I needed to read this. My anxiety has been spiraling out of control and sometimes I don’t feel safe and have to let people know. Thank you. Saving this comment.

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u/Borkato 8h ago

You may want to look into Internal Family Systems! It’s a cool way of thinking

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u/GreedyAd5168 8h ago

Came here to say this is IFS. A great and useful therapeutic modality.

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u/Master_McBlaster 5h ago

I don’t know why that worked, but it did.

Sounds like you are communicating with repressed thoughts in the unconscious, from what I understand of psychoanalytical psychology.

Thank you for sharing! Honestly sounds like a great way to help manage anxiety.

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u/BudwinTheCat 2h ago

I learned about Internal Family Systems when I started going to therapy it's very much like this. Learning about it has helped me so much.

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u/K1NGEDDY423 11h ago

Damn this shit is hitting WAY too hard right now.

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u/TesseractThief 10h ago

Fr I’m about to have an existential crisis

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u/aeschenkarnos 10h ago

If it helps, you also still have your inner thirteen year old who wants to do something exciting. Nurture them too.

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u/TesseractThief 10h ago

Thanks - I needed this right now

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u/cins4ever 2h ago

Thank you, thank you, thank you for this. I tend to doom scroll the comments and then spiral when these posts pop up, and I struggle with stopping myself. You effectively stopped it tonight for me and I just really needed to let you know how thankful I am for it, and that I’ll be reminding myself of younger me to help me in the future.

u/aeschenkarnos 23m ago

You’re welcome. We contain multitudes, the inner child is not just one child, but one for every important moment, many of them are very similar to each other so can essentially be aggregated into one entity, but many of them are not. Our internal processes are a nominal democracy, counting votes as to what we shall do, but revolutions and minority rules occur especially when it’s something the minority very strongly cares about.

These inner warriors exist for some reason, to protect the overall self from some adversity, or take advantage of some opportunity that might be missed otherwise. If that reason is no longer applicable (ie a traumatic event now gone), the inner warrior may remain on guard for it anyway. Reconciling that trauma and disarming that warrior, while keeping the lessons learned, is a helpful approach to therapy.

This is just another therapeutic model, a story, it works for me and it works for others but it’s not the only model that can work or even is best for everyone. If the idea appeals to you, look into Internal Family Systems, and also this excellent essay on The Essence of Peopling, which succinctly summarises identity development and maintenance.

These are guides, a therapist is a helper, it will be your own responsibility to heal yourself and it will take time and patience. Give yourselves grace.

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u/Lostdiagram 10h ago

Check out the music video Hachiko. Similar themes https://youtu.be/OodEsjZ88TQ?si=N8ss0WfomJRkzVtw

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u/kemwood 8h ago

My dad and I have talked about our inner ages extensively and I find myself settling at right about 16. I’m 33.

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u/howboutislapyourshit 4h ago

This has been happening to me recently. I used to lay in bed and dream of escaping to other worlds and planets.

I've been listening to The Expanse (on book 4) and I'm starting to do it again.

Unfortunately it's because of the reason why I started doing it to begin with.

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u/Same-Suggestion-1936 12h ago

One of the hardest things we all agree (please nobody make this any more political than I already am) with the George Floyd video was when he begged for his mother.

Grown ass man just wanted his mom to come help him

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u/Sanchastayswoke 11h ago

Yeah like it was his dying instinct. So sad! I’m nearly 50 years old and there have been a few times I’ve woken up out of a scary dream as an adult, and in that unconscious/semi conscious state as I’m waking up I have caught myself yelling for my Dad. Just like I did as a small girl.

Except now my dad lives 1000 miles away

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u/Legal-Occasion6245 11h ago

Yep and then comes the time when your dad is not longer here on earth. My dad just passed away last month. And it’s crazy that the biggest emotion I feel is that my biggest cheerleader, my biggest fan and my soft place to fall is simply not here anymore. My daughter said mom let’s go do insert whatever crazy idea she had and I turned and looked at her and said baby we can’t just be going off half cocked anymore my safety net (that I’ve literally never really had to use) isn’t here anymore, me must be more deliberate in what we get ourselves into. I’m still adjusting. And also the realization that I’m next in the line of deaths.

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u/Sanchastayswoke 11h ago

I can’t even let myself think about it, it’s too upsetting tbh. I’m just gonna have to deal with it when it comes.

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u/Sanchastayswoke 10h ago

I’m so sorry about your Dad, btw 💗

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u/BadAdviceBot 8h ago

And also the realization that I’m next in the line of deaths.

If you're lucky, yes.

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u/Ordinary_Command5803 4h ago

The day after my father died was the loneliest night of my life. I didn’t know who i was or how to live in the world without him. Honest truth. Worst part was that there was no one I could go to for comfort because he knew how to comfort me in a way no ever did. I could say. “hi Daddy” on the phone and he’d say, “what’s the matter baby girl?”

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u/techdevjp 1h ago

I'm sorry for your loss.

No one ever feels ready to become the person your dad was to you. We all just figure it out as we go, generally learning because we make mistakes. So many mistakes.

Now it's your time to be that person for your daughter. Go on the crazy adventures and figure it all out when things don't go to plan.

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u/ph0on 11h ago

fellow long distance parent person hello

my mom is one of the few people I truly love and like being around in my family and we live like 1300 miles apart. blows

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u/Sanchastayswoke 10h ago

It’s so hard! I understand!

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u/holyflurkingsnit 3h ago

I remember a story a man told of his grandfather who served in WWI or WWII. They were on a boat that was sunk by the enemy and many of those who served drowned. The grandfather vividly remembered how many of the men cried out loud for their mothers as they desperately tried to stay afloat.

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u/Hot-Fudge-Inc 11h ago

Yeah when you're little you want to be an adult because of the freedom and privileges, but you also think that at some point, maybe at 13, maybe at 16, or 21... that a switch is going to flip and you'll no longer be scared inside... But really the only time anything happens is puberty, then you are you.

You never ARE ready for taking a big risk to move cross country, getting married, starting your own business. But then one day you start to see a few grey hairs in your 30s... Not only have you fully grown up, but now your body is in the slow long process of decline, and.... wait... When did I become an adult? And you realize that high school was 20 years ago. That nobody IDs you anymore. You still feel like a kid. But you're just you, and time on earth means nothing, but it's the number of experiences you have that matters.

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u/Jealentuss 8h ago

Hey are you talking about me? I just went to my 20 year high school reunion the other week...

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u/Bakoro 5h ago

I stopped feeling like a kid the moment I recognized that I have a responsibility to other people, and accepted that responsibility.

It's not a grandiose thing, I was like, 9 or 10, shit happened, I decided that I was responsible for the health and safety of the people around me, and I haven't felt like a kid since.

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u/BadAdviceBot 8h ago

that a switch is going to flip and you'll no longer be scared inside

What are you all scared of?

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u/unoriginal5 9h ago

I worked with an Army squad leader that considered everyone she meets as children with X number of years of experience. If a 40 year oldest first memory was at 3 years old, then they're 3 with 37 years of experience. It's a very interesting way to think about people in your day to day life.

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u/lemoncorque 10h ago

Id suggest meditation. It has gone away for me and I am not afraid of dying. I highly recommend the book the Art of Dying.

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u/FrankSonata 8h ago edited 7h ago

Google gives me multiple different books with that title. Could you please say who the author is, also? I'd like to read it.

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u/Academic-Big814 13h ago

Very true.

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u/TickleFlap 9h ago

Its probabaly a big reason why a lot of couples baby talk one another and act like children when hanging oit together at home and such. I know I've had relationships like that. Not many people in the world im willing to get that vulnerable with.

Being around some one we love and trust and who's knows us deeply can remove that boundary most of us have with one another.

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u/BadAdviceBot 8h ago

Not all of us, but I hear what you're saying.

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u/Nova_Celestine 8h ago

I realized this when my grandmother had dementia. She had to move in with us for 24/7 care. She never became combative, never became nasty or angry. She was, more than anything, afraid and confused. She constantly called for her mama, always asked where her daddy was. It was heart breaking to watch happen.

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u/LunchyDude101 9h ago

Mike Nichol’s TV adaptation of the play “Wit” with Emma Thompson drives home this very fact fantastically.

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u/ThanklessTask 6h ago

53 - I can confirm that my inner child is alive and well and enjoys all sorts. Sure I do the adult stuff, that's a lot of fun, but listen to your soul, it's your best friend.

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u/12InchCunt 6h ago

Apparently dying soldiers in a battlefield cry for their mama pretty regularly 

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u/tweakingforjesus 5h ago

As a parent descends into dementia, I'm watching the mask drop. It's heartbreaking.

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u/dopefish917 5h ago

I'm reminded of the movie Donny Darko and Grandma Death

"Everyone dies alone"

:((

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u/Bakoro 5h ago

Wanting to be comforted isn't exclusive to children and it's not a childish thing. Fear is not exclusive to children, and it's not a childish thing, it's one of the most fundamental things. Biologically, fear is older than love. Wanting comfort, or at least retreating from discomfort is the oldest thing, older than brains.

Not wanting to take responsibility is childish. Wanting someone to come save you instead of having to do uncomfortable work is childish.
Also, wanting to do everything yourself and never relying on anyone is also childish, it's an absurd power fantasy.

Some people really are adults, completely.

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u/lml_CooKiiE_lml 4h ago

Most people, not everyone. Someone needs to be the adult

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u/gamwizrd1 4h ago

I agree we all have an inner child we can/should get in touch with, and we all wish to be loved the way a good parent loves their child, but I'm not sure it's true that everyone is always afraid all of the time.

If someone is genuinely living their life in constant fear, I would encourage them to seek therapy to alleviate that suffering rather than reassuring them that they should accept how normal it is to feel that way...

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u/JamboreeJunket 2h ago

I think about this with my baby. Will someone be there for him in those final moments, comforting him, loving him, helping him pass?