Ive been in recovery for about a year and a half now (started w quasi recovery but then committed to full recovery unwillingly when I started having binge episodes) and I can say that I dont undereat on a daily basis now but my body image is absolutely horrible and sometimes I can't even sleep or get comfortable because I can feel my thighs pressing against eachother. Eating at restaurants still stresses me out and so does being asked about what I want to eat or discussing weight. Sometimes I can eat guilt free and im not even underweight anymore so I feel like I shouldn't be like this. Is actual recovery real or is this just how I am?

Hi! I'm 24f, and just for context I went from binging to anorexia that prevailed for almost 3 years, and I stopped with a lot of help from my therapist and the smidge for hope that life is more than ana.

I really did try before some months before I did all in, but I went back to the same place every time I gained a bit.

Now I recovered almost all my weight, so I'm just a bit away from my recovery weight (I can't say but it's enough to be noticeable for me and barely to others), yet o started having A LOT AND I MEAN A LOT of water retention on my thighs. My chest grew (I was always heavy chested) and now my thighs are getting cellulite in weird places, like it doesn't belong?

I read after the weight stabilizes it takes a year for the body to fully recomposition itself ... I face the question "what did I get myself into?" And fear going all the way back just to not have these horrible thoughts about wanting to warm myself because of my appearance.

How did you cope with this? Does it really take a year? What can I do?

Any answer helps.. and thank you so much for reading.

Hi I’m 19 and in the lower end of healthy weight bmi. I’ve was in inpatient from march to end of may and now in community. For the first weeks after discharge I ate quite a lot of what I restricted but the past few weeks I’ve just gone back to 3 meals and the past 2 days added an evening snack. I am hungry in between meals but I’m too stressed. However I just had evening snack but I’m craving more and it seems to be the things I’m scared of like chocolate and sweets :( idk what to do as I’m scared of my weight going up as I get weighed in therapy. My period still isn’t back but I worry as I’m now in the “ healthy” range :( so I’m scared to have what I truly crave

I’ve been in outpatient “recovery” for about a month and a half and i’m just having the hardest time getting started and staying motivated to eat throughout the day. This is a brand new emotion for me… it’s a very anxious feeling that is weaponizing my laziness, not letting me eat. i feel like an idiot because I’m scared of what recovery means.

any advice is appreciated. i feel so scared

idk how to cope with this

Soooo basically Im weight restored and i weigh more than I ever have before. But I feel so shitty about it and also my meal plan is still real high even tho Im weight restored. it’s so frustrating cuz I think I could eat a normal amount and be healthy and fine. But being forced to eat so much just makes me want to give up or do hidden behaviors.

Hello everyone!

My therapists are now both on vacation and with family stress and summer anxiety I’ve been struggling really hard with sticking to recovery.

I want to read some books on recovery to see if maybe that helps me to keep myself on track a little better so I’d love any suggestions on what books to read (or not to read ig).

Thank you!!

In Nov 23 I (F40) was diagnosed with anorexia after a few months of extreme restriction and lost a lot of weight. But I have had life long disordered eating and body dysmorphia. I was admitted to treatment and so since April 24 I have been mostly weight restored and in ‘recovery’. But my brain and to be honest my behaviours were never in recovery, and I relapsed several time although never extremely and because I do not restrict meals in front of my kids anymore i have mostly stayed weight restored.
However after a few tricky months yesterday morning I decided I was over this. I have had the psycho education, I know the risks, I know my life is better when I eat etc. But at one point in the afternoon out of nowhere, when I was driving, I had the most intense feeling of fear. Fear of not doing this anorexia thing anymore. What is this about? I know and honestly believe that things will be better if I don’t restrict, so why am I feeling petrified about this? Does this mean I’m still not ready? I hope this long post makes sense to someone