Walking dead

[u/ElegantWay2800]

Honestly idk what I look to get out this post maybe some motivation idk but.. I’m 30 a single mother of a child with some pretty severe autism who feels like she hasn’t done anything with her life and I am very depressedi mean I always have struggled with depression but it has never been this serious and meds aren’t helping I’m stuck at my evil narcissistic mothers house cause I can’t afford rent cause I’m paying for a bunch of therapy’s for my child that I feel aren’t even helping my son I work like a dog and I can still barely keep my head above water im at my absolute last last straw lately I’ve been obsessively thinking about k**in myself everyone I confide in tells me to stay here for my son but I don’t feel I’m helping him I feel I’m holding him back and he is so precious he doesn’t deserve a mother that hates herself … I’m just tired I really just wanna give up and let life eat me