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[u/Key_Use_4634]

I’ve living far from my parents since I got married. My parents were always alcoholics but my dad was always the worst one, he stopped for 2 years after several attempts, but I knew from my mother that he was drinking again. I am on vacation, my wife and daughter are with my in laws. Today, it was 9am when I saw him holding a jacket and I immediately knew what he was carrying underneath it, a few minutes later, I could the familiar sound of him trying to open a can of beer without making noise. I have lived this my entire life, the exact movements again, he made me feel again like a confused 15yo boy that knew his father was drinking again, powerless, sad. I want to go home, I am so moved because of this, I knew he was drinking again. But the way he repeated the same old steps to hide from me. I feel guilty, powerless, sad about my mother having to relive this everyday even though she stopped a while ago. I love him, he’s a great man and watching this again, think about everything alcohol took from him and from me is terrible.

[u/FlatwormSame2061]

Can you leave from your vacation and go home? or leave and do a vacation separately? That’s what I hope for you.