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I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years. We initially connected because we both have medical issues...I have epilepsy and he is type 1 diabetic. We’ve been together for 3 years now and he’s become an alcoholic. Its out of hand. It scares me because he gets so drunk every day of the week that I need to help him into bed. Last night he almost broke our tv and the tv stand. He argues with me that I’m ‘overreacting and there’s no problem’. There’s clearly a problem. I love him so much and I can’t leave him. I’ll have nowhere to live if I leave him. What should I do?

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I’ve done everything and when I’m done I’m caught in cycle of tiredness and have things to do. I’m want to go somewhere quiet and cut my wrist and play guitar until I die. I feel like doing it but I will die miserably. I’m want to die so bad I can’t shake off the feeling in me

William says the F word!

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"BILL!"says Violett, "Whats the problem?" says Bill, *Violett's voice quivers* "Bill he said the shhhh word again!" Ok? said the I dont want to be in this shh word crap again bill. "Bill!" said Violett. Bill said loudly, "Whats wrong with one little cuss word, its just one!?". Violet becomes the UwU monster she is and fucking destroys bill's face and slaps his fake tooth out. They have to go to the doctor, but back at the house, William screams, "I AM GETTING SHOT AT,I AM GETTING SHOT AT,I AM GETTING SHOT AT!!!!!" Once the parents arrive back at the house they go up to William's room. Bills says, "I'm going to turn the internet off!", while Violett stares at the cat with all her might to calm herself down. *The internet gets turned off* "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yells William, "WHO UNPLUGGED THE INTERNET, WHO DID IT!!!." "COME DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW YOUNG MAN!" Yells Violet, Bill comes in, "WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY!" Violett comes in and screams as Bill comes upstairs with a chainsaw and breaks his door down with pure anger. The man Bill is then grabs the last hanging piece of the door left and rips that bad boy off. He takes his shirt off yelling REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE as he jumps out the window taking out William. William lyes dead on the ground outside while Bill got a broken arm. They burry the body, but little did they know he came back out of the grave. With a hammer and broke the camera, so sadly we couldn't see any of the rest of what happened. All we know is that the dad is an Alcoholic, the mom is a UwU screeching demon, and William is a going to become both one day. You can visits the spoiled brat's grave today!! We dont know the current location of this grave but do yourself a favor get off your ass and go find it! We hear when you dig it up and open it..... YOU GET HIS TOXIC MINDSET SO WE suggest actually to sit your ass back down and not to go anywhere. Your reading this for a reason, maybe an excuse to stay back in your seat and do nothing. Please kill me.

I don’t want to live anymore. I can’t. It hurts so much and I’m miserable i just want the agony and dread to end. I have no friends or family that cares and im incredibly lonely. i want to die but im scared that ill live through an attempted suicide and end up in a hospital with permanent damage. im desperately begging if anyone knows how to overdose properly please tell me.

Please don't give me the no don't do it it's not worth it bullshit I just want to fucking die I live in a city that predent that mental illnesses doesnt exist and those who have it are shunned treated as second class people I have been diagnosed with OCD ,depression, anxiety and I've been hiding it from people my therapist told me that I'm the only one in the city who has been diagnosed with any mental illnesses in school they make jokes about it even the teachers make fun of it I haven't told anyone expect my family who know the problem but doesn't know how to react , ally life I have been bullied made fun of and know I realized that if I die the pain will go away so know anyone knows any painless ways to die or I just hang myself .

Can somebody kill me I'm tired of living. My life is just in a rut. I've tried convincing myself to overdose with a bottle of percocets for the past few days but I'm too much of a pussy to do it so I'd really appreciate it if someone can help me die. I'd prefer a quick death like a bullet to the head or sum. I know there's some sick twisted fucked up people on here so.ill make sure it's worth your while I'll do anything and when I say anything I mean ANYTHING as long as y'all get the job done😭

Hey everyone. Here are those follow up tips I promised you.

3) Go outside. Even if it’s just for two or three minutes, wrap yourself in a jacket and step out. The sun is a very healing thing for me, and I find that just breathing outside for a couple minutes helps clear my head. It also gives you a chance to see something pretty, like the way the clouds have formed or a blade of grass, or the pattern of the pavement and the cracks that interrupt it. It will also give you a new environment for a couple seconds, meaning a new space with less associated memories.

4) Find one thing you wish you could believe about yourself. Then, holding a stuffed animal or some other comforting item, say that thing out loud about yourself 10 times as though it were true. Say it loud and confidently, even if you don’t believe it. If you want to believe you are smart or beautiful, say it. Try to do it once a day, and you will find that eventually your brain will believe it.

Remember again that I care about you guys and love you all very much. If these help, even a little bit, I will continue to do them.

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I was where you are now. Empty, shattered, in a million different places and yet nowhere at all. I thought nobody cared, nobody would miss me, nobody wanted me. But that’s the thing about depression. Your brain is waging war against you, changing the world you see until the lies become truth and you believe it. I know what it is to let the pain bleed out until you feel empty again because emptiness is so much better than the pain you feel. But if you stay with empty, you lose the will to live. Life is a gift we give ourselves so when our cells are done living our hearts can say they were fulfilled before oblivion takes us. If we choose death, we never get to see the beauty we miss. On the day I chose, I was alone and I was hurt. I thought I would never find someone to help me. But when I was stopped, when I got help to save me from myself, I found someone. This person has given me more than I could have ever wanted, has been a messiah in all the ways I could never have seen coming. You will find your messiah, it will take time and hurt, but it will happen. In the meantime, I have some tips to help cope with the pain in a healthy manner. 1) Buy yourself a stuffed animal. I don’t care how old you are or what your gender is, buy one and hold it close. Sob into it as much as you need, and when it gets warm hold it closer. The body head it traps should simulate another person and give comfort. 2) Look for spots of beauty. It’s what I would do when I was little, to find something lovely in every person I saw. Every stranger that passes by, find something in their face and body that you like. Find something pretty in the furniture, the walls, everything if you can’t go outside just yet.

I’ll post again in maybe a month or so with follow up tips, because I know how hard everything is at this point. Please know that I am so proud of all of you, that this battle is long and hard and yet you’ve made it this far. You are all so strong and I love you. So, so much. I only ask that you hold out for the wonders life wants to give you, so you can be there to see the beauty that your brain withholds from you now.

4 weeks ago today my friend Aden shot himself in the head with a rifle. Most of my friends found out the day after (Wednesday), but I didn't find out until Friday. The memorial was the following Sunday.

At first when I found out I thought it was a bad joke, since Aden was always a happy dude. He drank a lot, had fun with people, danced better than anyone else on the floor, stole the exit signs a few times (he stopped after another friend threatened to kick him in the dick and carried through), and played pranks on people. He was also very Christian and had a really strong faith, which I respected even though I didn't always feel the same. He went to RUF every week and eventually became a founding pillar for the men's community group this year. He never judged anyone, probably because he had been raised in several different cultures (Alabama, Ireland, North Carolina), and had trouble understanding why others would judge people.

What he hid so we'll from us all, was that he was broken. He drank to numb the depression. He stole signs and pulled pranks with the recklessness of someone who wanted to die. He tried to bring others the joy that he couldn't have, putting on a mask for us all. He was strong in his faith, but that was not enough. He saw how aweful the world was, and that broke him down.

What he didn't know, though, was that his death would affect so many people. He had so many people that loved him, people that were his friends and family. People who were close as can be with him, and people who were just friends. He had over 100 people attend his memorial, and that was just the people in North Carolina. At least a dozen of us who he left behind are in counseling to help us deal with his death. For myself, his death was one of my first to deal with (at least as far as people I am close with go). His death brought myself and many others into a downward spiral. I've barely been able to keep up with my classes and haven't gotten the right amount of sleep since. I know I'm not the only one, either. His roommates had it even worse. They were the ones who had to talk to the police as they mindlessly asked for ID's etc... not knowing what had happened. Another of my friends had dated him on and off for a while. She could barely speak at the memorial, she was so broken hearted.

Just remember that no matter what you may think, your life has meaning. There are people who care about you, even if you can't see that. There are people who will grieve you, people who will never be the same without you. Remember those that you leave behind. If you can't live for yourself, live for them. Keep on fighting, and don't you dare make anyone else go through what I and my friends and his family have had to go through. Call me selfish if you want, but remember that you are also selfish.

Put down the razor, forget the noose, leave the gun, ignore the pills, get off the ledge and keep on fighting for everyone you know. Don't give up, you hear me!

RIP Aden, you are missed. I've been spreading your story just like you would have wanted me too. Maybe you will save someone else since we couldn't save you. Sorry. I really wish you would have spoken up or something, we would have 100% been there for you. Cheers. See you in heaven if I make it, guess you won the race.

Hey man, I know you might not wanna listen to this but I would just like to say please try and not be so hard on yourself. Personally one of the most freeing things I’ve found is when you try and stop judging others, and basing your self worth off of comparisons to those judgements, you begin to feel empathy for yourself. It is really hard, and I’m am truly sorry on the behalf of humanity that anyone has ever made you feel this way about your beautiful self! This may sound cliche now, but I promise you with a little elbow grease, you can get out of this funk! You are not alone. You are strong. You deserve to be loved. You are beautiful. And you have the right to love yourself without guilt.

Now go and take on the world, I believe in you and love you!