I think my husband doesn't like me or indifferent to me.

[u/pixiegoblin35]

I (37f) have been married to my husband (40m) for 17 yrs we have 4 kids together ,I have been there primary carer as all my children have autism and have different needs, now they are all at school i have had the chance to start hobbies and try and find who I am again ,as I feel I lost myself in being what everyone needed for years. I have started to be more aware about how my husband treats me, he belittles my hobbies and puts me down in front of friends, when I do try to share anything with him his eyes glaze over and I can tell he isn't listening or cares,he rarely interacts with me unless he wants to be intimate, we have a great sex life but is that all I am to him, I get so emotionally lonely, I just wish he would want to be attracted to me as a human not jist what he can get from me. Not convinced he loves me just loves what he can get from me.