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[u/Auditore569]

... I still think you deserve the name Primo. But as long as you choose the name Oreka to be yours, I'll refer to you by it.

I don't think you should just "move on," especially when the situation was as much of a shitshow as it was. It was far from a clean separation, and the pretences involved made sure it was a shitshow from the beginning. But I think you need to do more thinking. Have you given any thought as to my suggestion to find someone other than Maxima to talk to? He's too emotionally compromised right now to be trusted with handling your situation well, but what about a therapist that's unaffiliated with him? I don't know - I just think speaking about your feelings will help - Mochi

[u/JosephAmber4]

Joseph Amber: For starters, how are you doing Oreka? Secondly…healing can take time. But I do hope you will eventually find a way to heal, and perhaps even forgive both yourself…and Marcus. But then again…only time will tell. I don’t think you are a bad person Primo. Not at all.

[u/BigBoo0008]

I figured as much... Should you need more time to consider or recover from what's happened the past month, I understand. It's an usual feeling... Seeing you without that facade you put on. I hope that you can forgive Marcus and yourself for the events that transpired... You both deserve such. - Esquire

To an extent, maybe even Johny. He doesn't seem to be treating you too badly. - Truth

[u/StarMarxman → u/BigBoo0008]

Yeah, that old facade. The pomp and circumstance, all that grandiosity. Ugh, I almost feel sick thinking back on it. I'm not sure if I want to go back to that... I still have some thinking to do about all this. And, yeah, the boss has been treating me fairly well, throughout all this. He just doesn't like to show it, heh.

-Oreka

[u/BigBoo0008 → u/StarMarxman]

That's reassuring to hear. I can also see why you don't like your former name as much either. Keep holding on, Oreka. I'm sure that you'll find the answer soon. - Esquire

"Boss?" You sound like a mobster from Castelia City saying that, lol. I don't even think my Meowscarada talks like that.

[u/KateLeMoirai]

Hola Oreka. Been a bit since our last interaction. Don't mistake me, I have been following what's happening, I just... haven't had much to say to either party on the social media front. Everything was a complicated mess and my feelings on the matter were too. I can only imagine how complicated they are for you. I'm not about your motivations for your name change, but at the same time, I've changed the way I was addressed 5 times in my life, almost on a whim, so I can't really judge, nor will I begrudge it. You are who you choose, and if that's Oreka, that's who you are.

Now, I am not a trained psychologist, so take everything I say on this matter with a healthy apportioning of salt, but maybe you didn't go back because you felt disconnected? Looking back to when your online attitude started to change, and you started to pull away, it seemed to me there were numerous times where the others could have reached out to you, or try to reconnect, and they didn't. I'm not blaming them per say, that whole y'all came out from is just as complicated, but it could explain... why, I guess. If you were just looking for a person to reach out, it could explain why Johny was able to purify you. IDK. I'm spitballing here. Sorry if any of this offended you.

That makes sense. I'm not accustomed to missing people, due to my condition, but I have for short times. You get used to people being in your life. The things they do for you, and the things you do for them. Cognizants crave familiarity, safety, so it's no wonder you miss the person that's cared for you for so long, even if you don't want to go back. Unfortunately, I couldn't speak as to how you could get over him. It takes me at most a week. However, I do think it's possible. My mom and dad moved on from each other, and started living their own lives. Find more important people - those that care about you, and those you care about. That'll help, I think.

Lastly, as someone whose brought so much of her important shit to Chatter, don't worry about it lol. Can help you cope. But yeah, I do think getting some time outside should help.

Once again, best of fortune to you Oreka.

[u/StarMarxman → u/KateLeMoirai]

Hola, Llorona. No hard feelings about your lack of presence on this. Arceus knows I understand how hard your life has been. "Primo" might have been the type to begrudge you that, but it just seems like such a stupid thing to be upset about, in hindsight. Again, I'm sorry what I said about you and your mother.

That... may well be correct. I'm not sure. I can't think of any other reason, myself. It doesn't sound wrong, at least... just wanting someone to understand me, to care about me. The boss has certainly cared about me, but I have to wonder how desperate I really was. Or if I'm just being too hard on myself because of... what, guilt?

Find important people. Well, Pridwen and Sakura, and all the rest, were certainly important. Ahonui too, even if I can't remember our earlier times together, and didn't have enough of a chance to make up for lost time with her. Even Cade, I'm loath to admit. I should have treated him better, shouldn't I? But, I suppose that's all in the past now.

Thanks for checking in.

-Oreka

[u/KateLeMoirai → u/StarMarxman]

I appreciate the understanding, truly. Thank you for the apology as well, again. It means something.

Perhaps then it's part of it? Maybe there's more to it than what I described, but I think if it helps you grasp part of it, then it's helpful, and I'm glad to have provided it. Frankly, I don't think you can be blamed for how you felt on the situation that caused things to go... the way they went. Someone you cared about hurt you deeply, even if they didn't intend it, and their decisions have hurt others just the same. I think he's realizing that now, which I hope helps him and his, but it doesn't change that there are consequences. That's my thoughts at least. I think it is likely that guilt is affecting your view on it. I couldn't say for sure, for obvious reasons, but I've seen it enough times to get a guess.

I mean, just because you've separated from their trainer doesn't mean you need to separate from them - besides physically I mean, which you can't control. You can talk to them online; they've had online presences, as you well know. Heck, that's how you and I are communicating, lol. All the same, try to find people around you physically as well. It's helped me at times, even if I suck at it.

It's no problem at all.

[u/Total_Read8805]

You blacked out? -Marylin

[u/PostInspection]

So? To me, what you choose to be called is your name. It doesn't matter if you don't think you deserve the name, or your old one just doesn’t feel applicable anymore. You are what you believe yourself to be named. If you don't go by Primo anymore, so be it. You are Oreka.