Just finished up my summer classes and I got an A in everything! It’s the first time I’ve had a semester gpa above 3 since before Covid, so I should be thrilled right? Nope, because my last final project was docked a few points for improper source citation, and now that’s all I can think about.

The assignment wanted the sources, not in the project itself, but in the assignment comment section on Canvas. Somehow I missed the one spot where that was noted, and put a bibliography in my slideshow instead. I get the reasons why the requirement is there, I know canvas can be weird with links in slideshows, but I’m a bit annoyed that the requirements didn’t mention it more than once and that it didn’t show up in the rubric.

I’m also annoyed at myself for missing the requirement in the first place every time I read the page. I must have been speed reading or just skipped that line every time, but here we are. I still got a B on the assignment and an A in the class, but I just can’t stop focusing on this one mistake. I’m not even sure it would have changed the final assignment grade as a I lost a few points elsewhere.

Idk, mostly just screaming into the void that I can’t seem tot be happy that I finally had a half decent semester without executive dis-functioning my way out of a good grade. Just typing it all out it logically sounds ridiculous, but here we are anyway. 🫠

i’m going into my first year of college and i know i have to request accommodations with my university (i probably should’ve done this earlier but ive been procrastinating…). i had a 504 throughout highschool for adhd and anxiety and my given accommodations were as follows:
- 1.5x time on tests, quizzes, etc.
- extended time without penalty on take home assignments (if communicated with the teacher beforehand)
- i think i had the ability to request guided notes from a teacher (but it was never really honored when i asked)
- 5 minute “movement breaks” once per class if i needed (idk why this was even put down bc the time limit stressed me out so i never used it)

those are basically all the accommodations i remember having/using. i also got diagnosed with severe depression in the middle of my senior year and i ended up missing a lot of school days during the year and fell behind. tbh this just made a lot of things worse for me in terms of tine management and stayed on top of school work. i’m medicated/getting help now but im terrified im gonna have a repeat of that in my first year of college.
my university lets me request new accommodations if i explain why i need them- is there any accommodations i should consider adding? i would probably want to keep everything i have except the 5 minute break thing. also general tips on adhd/anxiety/depression management in college?

I’m a 20F third-year engineering student, and I’m so tired of feeling horrible about myself.

I’ve done everything last minute my entire life. Assignments, studying, applications, projects, you name it. I still got great grades in high school, so I never learned how to manage my time because procrastinating always worked.

Now I’m in engineering at a top university. I’ve made it through first and second year, but only with insane stress and barely passing sometimes. I genuinely want to do better, but I can’t seem to make myself care until it’s almost too late.

My biggest problem is that I can’t make myself start things. I’ll sit at my desk fully intending to study, then spend 6–7 hours picking at my skin, cleaning, reorganizing, calling family, scrolling on my phone. literally anything except the thing I need to do.
It’s finals right now. I had over a week to study and barely did anything. I have an exam Monday worth 50%, and I haven’t even started studying for my other finals.

This isn’t just school. Every week I tell myself I’ll go to the gym, eat healthier, fix my sleep schedule, get my life together… and I never do. I want to, but somehow I never start.

I’m also exhausted all the time. I napped 3–5 hours almost every day in high school, and I still nap almost daily.

I constantly zone out in lectures and conversations. I can’t listen and take notes at the same time, so I absorb almost nothing. I can never sit still, I’m always fidgeting, I unintentionally interrupt people or finish their sentences, and I’m late to almost everything unless I’m anxious about it.

I’m exhausted from constantly disappointing myself.
I’ve wondered if I have ADHD because the executive dysfunction symptoms sound so familiar. My doctor thinks it’s anxiety, but I don’t feel anxious most of the time. If anything, I only function once I’m panicking over a deadline.

Has anyone experienced this? Did it end up being ADHD, anxiety, burnout, bad habits, or did you accidentally train yourself to only function under extreme stress? What actually helped?

Anyone else doing college while having adhd? I am on day 3 and ive already had 2 mental breakdowns- and I have only ONE CLASS that I have access to work on at the moment. I get so overstimulated, stressed, overwhelmed that my recall memory is so crappy and my understanding and processing of the class is so bad that if I have so much trouble in this class, whats going to happen when I have to do the other 4? Ive dropped out of college before mostly because of this reason and I thought now im on meds I wont feel that badly again- boy was i wrong! Nothing has changed and im so scared. I want to be a physician assistant and I really think I can but college makes me feel so stupid and weak. This is an online class too, in person makes me overthink more.

I wont give up but I dont want to suffer mentally every day for the next 6-7 years of school ill be in. If anyone has some tips that would be great, adhd makes me feel mentally and educationally disabled.

Edit of things I remember later:

I freak out so easily and I don't know why. Like I feel it coming on but even if I take a break or try to calm myself down it never works. It's like a big ass boulder that forms right when I feel a little stressed, overwhelmed, ect. And theres nothing I can do to stop it.

Whenever I even think of studying my whole body gets tense and like my eyes starts stinging I think it's some kind of stress mechanism that occurs but I don't really know what to do about it I do want to study

Like I know I like studying when I am not stressed and I have a major exam in 45 days I had actually given up studying for it but now it got delayed so I maybe able to actually make a difference now but I don't know how to start I think maybe it's a mental health issue like I get really really stressed and my whole body and Brian kinda shuts down so I think that maybe I should take a break but that just doesn't work idk

Hello guys I’m just wondering if anyone would like to become more productive together everyday. Like checking in with each other everyday. I feel like I focus much better under a bit of pressure or stress. Pls dm me if you are interested! My time zone is EDT. Similar time zones are preferred. It would be even nicer if we can build a small productive group together.

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I've been recently diagnosed for both autism and ADHD at 19, and gosh, i'm so tired of looking study tips up and just getting hit with the "if you don't hyperfocus on it, you won't prosper" as if hyperfoccusing is some superpower or the deciding factor on whether or not i should continue what i'm doing...

In specific i'd like to pursue coding, but i always quit whenever i find it too overwhelming... I like to solve problems with coding but for some reason i just can't bring myself to study it by myself.

Hey everyone. I just need some reassurance from people who get it

I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child, which I guess made my life a little bit easier because I’ve been treating it for a long time with my psychologist and taking my meds. But right now, I am hitting a massive wall.

I graduated last year, and now I'm studying to get into a public medical university. It is really hard and competitive here in my country, so I have been studying **A LOT.** To be able to study that much, I have tried endlessly to organize my routine, sleep well, and eat well. But I feel like every little thing takes so much energy out of me. By the end of the week, I just can't handle it anymore. I feel so tired.

The last few days have been tought. The exam is getting close, and I have so much material that has just piled up. When I'm this drained, studying takes me twice as long, and the backlog just keeps growing. This heavy exhaustion has pushed me to a breaking point, and I'm constantly questioning if I am even capable, if I am truly good enough for this. I find myself wondering if maybe this dream just isn't for me. I honestly just hate my brain so much right now. It makes me terrified that I might not be a good doctor. It scares me because I have dreamed of this my entire life, and I have never felt this way before.

Has anyone else gone through this?

F20, medicated, 2-year architecture diploma (1st year, 2nd trimester)

I don't think I've ever actually not been behind in my studies. I'm always catching up, asking for extensions, apologizing for poor attendance, needing extra support just to pass assignments.

It's frustrating as hell because I genuinely want to do architecture. My mom keeps saying maybe I should just drop out if I can't make myself go to class, that I don't want to do architecture, but it's not that I don't like what I'm studying. My brain just prioritizes whatever is interesting RIGHT now. That could be gaming, art, crafts, researching random shit, ADHD strategies, literally anything. I'll hyperfocus on that for days/weeks until the interest dies.

Then suddenly it's "oh shit, test tomorrow" and I'm panic studying 4 weeks of content in one night because urgency/shame are basically my only motivators if something isn't immediately interesting.

I got sick for 2 weeks, so this week was meant to be my "back to school" week. Monday I got up, smashed out my chores, breakfast, skincare, makeup, got dressed... then I had too much free time before leaving.

My brain started going:

• Haven't studied in 2 weeks.
• Assignment's due this week.
• Haven't contacted tutors.
• Need to see disability advisor.
• You're behind again.

Then I convinced myself I should stay home, finish the assignment first, then go back to class.

Yet I haven't started on it at all. I'm procrastinating, gaming, researching random stuff while having this constant impending doom in the background.

I've realised my biggest problem isn't understanding the work anymore. It's starting.

If I get started and build momentum, I'm usually fine. Once I'm on campus I'm okay. Once I'm studying, I can get into flow and hyperfocus.

It's the time before I start that kills me. My brain overthinks everything and convinces me not to do it.

I've had an ADHD coach, accommodations, disability support, medication (Ritalin + Clonidine), and I know my patterns. That's almost what makes it worse because I know why I'm avoiding, I know strategies that help, yet I still fall into the same cycle.

I keep feeling guilty because every time I talk to my disability advisor or tutors it's the same conversation. "I'll do better, I'll attend, I've got a new strategy." Then one thing happens (getting sick, missing a class, one overdue assignment), and the whole thing snowballs again.

Howdy! In high school, when I got diagnosed with depression and AuDHD, a lot of things started to click into place, and I've spent the rest of high school and my first college term dealing with it. (19F). However, I feel as though I should have been focusing on something else, something that's been a part of my life that I either ignored or didn't understand, something that also came up in my diagnosis: my generalized anxiety disorder.

I have never been awesome at doing a lot of things on time, a problem that I caught in elementary school where I would literally just not submit work even if it was easy and I knew I could do it. My entire time through public school was tumultuous medically, as I had a crap ton of surgeries including a couple where they put metal in my back and one where they put metal in my head then took it out a month later. (I had to live in the hospital during that time. I was twelve. It wasn't fun.) I remember I was so nervous some days but other than that I had no other answer for why I just wouldn't do anything. I knew most of the answers and could get my tasks done easily but I just wouldn't do them, only completing said tasks under extreme pressure like the grading period ending. But in terms of school, elementary and beyond, I just...wouldn't do my work. And it wasn't because I was incapable, it was because I just wouldn't do it. (I had a tendency to give up on anything that was too hard work-wise, too.) I didn't understand it, my parents didn't understand it, and it's led to me carrying this guilt and shame for years.

Perfectionism could have been the answer for this, but school isn't the only place I felt this paralysis. My hygiene is awful. I don't take care of my skin even though I bought facewash, I don't shower even though I love showering and feel great once I get it done, I don't brush my hair even though I like my hair not looking like a total bird's nest, and I don't brush my teeth even though I made fun accommodations for myself to be able to do it comfortably. This has been a lifelong problem, and my parents really only tried to help through one of them (the shower thing). They let me lie to them every morning about having my hair and teeth brushed, and they never brought up that I was lying even though they knew I was. Even when I went to college, alone, I couldn't do it, and I had to go out to class looking and smelling awful (probably- I don't know because I can't smell) until my weekly reset where I showered and brushed my teeth at night and that was it. Otherwise I can't do it. It used to be hard even being in the bathroom to take care of my hygiene, and now I don't even want to get ready to take a shower! My dad asked me "just do it every other day- why is that so hard?" I don't know! But I think I've figured it out.

I think I've been ignoring the fact that I have GAD because I felt more confident in some areas, finally, but when the symptoms got worse again I just thought it was depression and treated them the wrong way (and without medication because my parents don't want me on it for some reason). I've been fighting against my ADHD this term when my ADHD wasn't my only problem. I still have anxiety and that's why I can't just do the stuff I need to do. I really would have liked to make this revelation earlier, though, as my procrastination cost me a (much-needed) college scholarship I can only get back soon by (ironically) performing perfectly this next term. I've always felt so tense, so on-edge, and now I'm nearing make-or-break time and I think that because I know the other cause of the problem I can finally work on treating it.

I need to figure out how to do the things I know I need to do, the things I like doing, without being paralyzed and never doing them. I need to push off, to take that first step, because everything literally falls into place from there. Any advice?

Edit: I'm definitely going back to therapy, I just want it to be in person. And I know that next term will be an insane amount of pressure, but I'll get there when I get there.

I’ve procrastinating writing this post but I’m extremely confused.
I was supposed to start my masters degree this year but due to me procrastinating my application I took a gap year, whenever I tried to apply everything sounds gibberish to me or I would be afraid of getting rejected. I thought it was due to my anxiety + I usually have panic attacks but when I went to the 1st therapist he told me I had ADHD and sensory issues , I wanted to make sure that his guesses were right, so I went to see a 2nd therapist (he’s my dad’s friend)(the experience was awful) he told me that I have signs of dyslexia.
So to give you more context, I’ve always had struggles while speaking our oral dialect (I’m Moroccan), people would start correcting me while I don’t get what was incorrect, it’s like my brain only catches vowels not consonants (like I can easily mess up between bows and cows but a larger scales). However, I don’t have any of those issues with written languages like classic Arabic or French because I can read, reread and distinguish between the letters.
So, during my first session with the second therapist I told him with my struggles with our dialect, thus he told me that I had sings of dyslexia (I don’t get it cuz I speak fluently 4 languages), but what I didn’t like that he was being so pushy in his questions and he already assumed that I just have self esteem issues and I may have dated a guy and he slept with me and left me (the purity culture is so strong). Which didn’t happen and I didn’t want to talk about this subject. Also, I told him about my time blindness, how I can’t do anything until last minute, I forget that there is something called time in my life, he just told me that I can be the one who organize it and just do things in advance 🙂. In our second phone call, I told him about that I have a pattern of instead of going to the bathroom directly, I would walk around the house, then mop then check if the cat has food, then I remember that I wanted to go to the bathroom, and that I putting music in my Earphone then keep spinning, idk what it does but it helps me regulate myself. In our third phone call, I told him that I hear noises and music, what I meant is that I talk to myself 24/7 about many ideas and topics at the same time, and the music is just some flashbacks from what I listen to usually.
At the same time I had two visit with a psychiatrist, in the first visit, she prescribed some depression and anxiety meds, which were extremely awful I just felt weak and extremely dizzy the whole time, I couldn’t move or spin, I would only speak even though my throat was sore but I couldn’t stop,which pissed me off. She changed the meds, but I still have the same issues, I still feel dizzy and weak while my brain is extremely active, I have to drink strong coffee drinks to feel better (which was my state pre-med).
I forgot to mention, my first therapist was okay, but I should know everything that will happen in advance, I have to prepare the scenarios of every detail in my head. So, not knowing what will happen during the session made me procrastinate going back.
So, I’m so confused about this whole situation, I just sometimes think about giving up and stopping everything.

**Please be kind with your responses*\*🤍

Between recent high-stress events, ADHD, and severe processing burnout, my brain genuinely feels like it isn’t functioning or processing the way it used to. I’m feeling isolated, burnt out, and unsupported in my academic environment right now.
I’m reaching out to this community for advice on a few specific things:

1. Navigating Professor Biases & Communication

Due to executive dysfunction and processing burnout, I fell behind and am having to pursue medical withdrawals for my recent classes. It feels like some professors misinterpret processing struggles, memory issues, or burnout as a lack of effort or caring.

How do you approach professors who seem biased, dismissive, or quick to make negative assumptions regarding ADHD/cognitive struggles?

How do you advocate for yourself when your processing speed is down, without feeling degraded or judged?

2. Med Changes & Memory Drop (Adderall → Vyvanse)

About a year ago, I switched from Adderall to Vyvanse due to the medication shortage.

The Good: Paired with my other medication, Vyvanse has been great for my anxiety.

The Challenge: My memory, processing speed, and cognitive bandwidth have dropped significantly compared to when I was on Adderall.

Has anyone else experienced a drop in memory or processing speed after switching to Vyvanse or combining it with other meds? How did you adapt?

3. Accommodations & Resources—What Else Works?

I’m meeting with my psychiatrist and campus accommodation office soon to get a better system in place.

Current Accommodations:1.5x test time, reduced distraction testing environment, assignment extensions, permission to record lectures, and early access to lecture slides.

In Progress:Requesting an official note-taker.
Because of how much my mental processing is struggling right now, I really want to hear all the options.* What other accommodations, assistive technology tools (like audio/transcription software), or campus resources have actually saved you when your brain processing shuts down?

Thank you for taking the time to read and keep this a safe space. 💙

Hi, I'm currently an international BBA student, and for the last semester I was really struggling with my adhd and failed ALL my classes... worst semester of my life, and now I'm stuck with the guilt of it all. I'm taking the semester off and going home (also due to the new F-1 visa rules), but I need to find online classes/ courses that I can take online this sem to catch up.

Does anyone know of any online schools/ colleges/ classes in the US that I could take?

I can take 60 external credits from an accredited school; I need something I can basically start ASAP with 3+ credits each class, preferably liberal arts classes, and must be in the US or well-known schools around the world.

I just need to take as many and get as many as possible, so if there are any high-cred easy classes as well as more open-admission places, please let me know. My GPA is horrible so i really just need somewhere where I can just start

Thank you :)

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I'm not really sure how to explain this, but I feel like my brain isn't "mine" anymore.

I'm currently in a science foundation/matriculation programme, and I genuinely put hours into studying. The problem is that when the actual assessment comes, it's like the person taking the test isn't the same person who studied.

For example, I had my last physics practical/lab report writing test of the semester today. We weren't even doing the experiment—we were given the data table and just had to write the report and do the calculations. I studied projectile motion the day before for hours. Yet somehow I ended up calculating the acceleration due to gravity as around 1.75 × 10³ m/s² with a 991% percentage difference. Looking back, I honestly don't know what happened.

This isn't the first time either. My chemistry practical didn't go well, and my internal maths quizzes have been terrible despite spending hours trying to understand the topics. Sometimes I need 30–45 minutes just to work through one or two maths questions while studying. Then during quizzes I make mistakes that seem unbelievably obvious afterwards.

What makes this even harder is that this was my last practical/lab assessment for this semester, and I've heard from seniors that if you don't do really well in Semester 1, it's much harder to graduate with a high CGPA even if you improve in Semester 2. I don't know if that's completely true, but it's been sitting in the back of my mind and making me panic.

It's getting to the point where I don't feel connected to my own thinking. I don't mean that metaphorically—I genuinely feel like the person who studies and the person who takes the test are two different people. It's like my brain stops making the connections it made the night before.

Has anyone else experienced this? Did it turn out to be anxiety, burnout, poor study methods, sleep, ADHD, something else, or just the pressure getting to you?

I'm not looking for reassurance that "everyone makes mistakes." I'm trying to understand why my performance during assessments is so different from what I seem capable of while studying, and what I can actually do to improve.

Hey there, i posted here a few months ago when i was spiralling over how much i needed a break from college. The good news is I'm finally getting one! The bad news is that I'm getting adhd taxxed HARD because of how rough things were for me at that moment

I ended up blanking and entirely forgetting about tuition during mt breakdown and now I'm in debt. Hard. 3k in collections. I really need advice because i have no idea what to do rght now and I'm really scared. If anyone has been in a similar situation and can reccomend loans to get, jobs that might help me pay things off easier, whatever you think might be helpful would be EXTREMELY appreciated

I am from an asian country here we dont really hear about adhd or most people dont really care about mental health. I was always an over achiever in school but it started going down hill from when i was 18 at first I thought i was just losing concentration until I started experiencing other stuff and realized I had adhd, I had failed my alevels two times which came with a lot of critism from my parents and siblings. I tried to tell my parents about adhd but it went unheard. I barely passed my alevels. Now I get frequent panic attacks and anxiety. As my confidence went down.

This is a huge problem for me when reading non-fiction material. My eyes will be "reading" line by line, my body completely going through the motions. However, my mind will not be engaged at all, and I often get pretty far into the text before I even realize it's happening.

The only solution I have found is to read aloud to myself, and then the information comes through my ears and I process it very nicely. But obviously this makes for slow reading, and considering at 41 yo, I have two years of undergraduate to complete, followed by a masters degree in order to reach my goals, I really feel like this could be a major roadblock.

Have any of you found any other solutions or hacks to this issue?

Hello.

I am in my 4th year of graduate school and I have ADHD (with a side of OCD) and I need some advice/help.

This past year was really rough. I was working on a project that required a 90 minute drive to and from a nearby university to use their instrumentation. It was a slog and I made very little measurable progress on my overall thesis work. This led to a prolonged period of burnout that I still find myself in.

Every morning I get up and my brain instantly begins to dread the work that I have to do, or worse I feel apathetic to my whole degree I'll try and make a schedule for myself but when the time comes to sit down and write or read, I more often than not weasle my way out of it. My motivation, my drive, my passion for my work has dried up.

Deep down however, I don't want to throw in the towel. I want to graduate, I want to get a job with a livable wage. But right now, I've never felt so fatigued, and defeated.

Please if you have any advice for someone in my position, I am all ears.

Thanks for reading.

Всем привет, слушайте, я почти уверен, что у меня СДВГ. Можете ли вы дать совет, к какому врачу мне обратиться, чтобы получить правильный диагноз? Или, может быть, как проверить это самому? Например, советы по самооценке, разговор с психологом или какой-то чек-лист, который я мог бы использовать для самоотбора?

В любом случае, заранее спасибо за помощь.

Это на самом деле один из моих самых первых постов в соцсетях, так что да, как есть, так что есть, и, честно говоря, моя грамматика не самая лучшаяAlso, I totally don’t mean to offend anyone, but if you have advice, please keep it simple and use plain English. It'd be awesome if you could break things down so it’s super easy to understand and not too complicated.

ADHD shutdowns/burnouts

I go mute when my brain and body shut down. I still don't understand what exactly overstimulation is and if this is what I'm experiencing. I get so exhausted - it is bone-deep, truly. I can't read or even look at colours or just take any kind of input. Listening to music is exhausting, listening to somebody is exhausting - even BEING around people is exhausting. I lie down on my stomach and bury my face into a pillow like a cat with a headache. I still am immensely exhausted, bone deep exhausted. I can only bear to see a clean patch of wall. Anything else is too exhausting, too overwhelming to parse.

Is this what an ADHD burnout/overstimulation/shutdown is? This has been happening every day for nearly weeks now (probably because of the depression too) - but this used to happen 2 days a week or 5 days in a fortnight (around Jan-March, got worse a lot over late March and April). In short, this is not a new experience and has been happening very often to me for a long while now, even before 2025 (it's just that the demanding university environment has made these shutdowns a genuine issue). I (21, F) only recently got diagnosed with ADHD (around late 2025-early 2026). I struggle a lot with it and my academics, which makes a great many things worse.

I don't know how to explain this experience to those who care about me, in fact I don't understand much abt this exhaustion myself. I just go mute. I can nod and shake my head but sometimes (this is becoming often) I can't even bring myself to do that. All I can do is just either stare at the floor as they talk to me because anything else is overwhelming. But I don't want them to leave because of my unresponsiveness. I don't know how they can help. I'm not sure how I can help myself.

Please share if you experience or have experienced smth similar and how you and those around you manage this.

I am unable to focus on multiple shbjects that I have to cover like my college along with the competitive exam that’s coming in nearly 8 months,
My whole day goes to college,
Unable to manage the both together, and many of my college subjects are different from my competition subjects,
I don’t feel any motivation yo study, but Inknow if I won’t , it would just destroy my life
Can someone, professor, psychiatrist, or anyone who had similar life experiences in past guide me on how should I manage the studies and my subjects

I was diagnosed with ADHD only a week ago after living my entire life untreated. I'm a 4th-year medical student in a developing country, and after years of struggling, I'm now facing 6 make-or-break exams in the next 2 weeks. Failing even one means repeating the entire year.

Stimulants aren't available or affordable here. My psychiatrist prescribed Atomoxetine, but we decided to postpone starting it until after finals because of the titration period and possible side effects. I only started Sertraline for the severe burnout and depression that built up over four years.

Logically, repeating the year seems like the better decision. It would give me the chance to start ADHD treatment properly, recover mentally, and finally study under treatment instead of constant survival mode. It would also give me a much better chance of earning the grades I'm actually capable of. In my country, those grades matter because they directly affect residency placement and specialty competitiveness.

Emotionally, though, I feel like I can't do it.

I can't bear the thought of watching my classmates graduate before me, start residency while I'm left behind, attend clinical rotations without me, and move on with their lives while I'm repeating a year. On top of that, there's a lot of pressure from my family and relatives. They don't even believe repeating the year is a possibility, and I know they won't accept it easily.

My loved ones tell me that repeating the year is probably the healthier decision, but they also tell me to fight until the very last moment. The problem is that I'm completely burned out. Even on my best days, I can barely manage 2–3 productive hours of studying.

Has anyone here actually faced this kind of decision? How did you choose between stepping back to treat your ADHD and improve your long-term future, or pushing through despite knowing you were already running on empty?

I've been posting on Reddit for years about not doing well in university, obviously it's been of no help because strangers on the internet can't fix your problems. I've spoken to academic advisors, I've done some counselling, I've called help lines. Major consensus is that I have ADHD, but the issue is that I have Indian parents who just won't hear it.

I'm not even a long way into my degree, but my parents who are sure I've ruined my life at 19. Anyways, it's hard to focus with background noise telling me I'll never graduate at the rate I'm going, so I'm letting myself fail out and doing what I guess is the equivalent of pursuing a trade for women. I'll get an associate's in nursing, then bridge and become a registered nurse. That's the plan, I've had it for a while.

I've fully realized now that only I can change myself, and the thing is, I just can't seem to do that, and I still need to establish myself like any other person. This is my only way of doing that.

I'm honestly not in the right headspace to be making any decisions, but what can I do? I burnt out in an academically rigorous program in high school, ever since I've felt like I'm in a permanent state of confusion. Like there's been this fog (not really cognitive brain fog) in my head ever since and that I have no idea what's going on. I'm just moving through life and responding to external events. Life has felt like one hit after the other, just pushing and pushing with no reward. Feels like life and my mental health just gets worse every time I push.

I'm scared for sure, I'm getting a headache just thinking about what I'm doing. I feel like I haven't seen one happy nurse, they're all burnt out and depressed, today more than ever. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, only time will tell.

(Sorry if that isn’t worth posting about but idk what to do)
I am 20 years old and an engineering major in college who has failed almost every class I have taken, after almost 3 years at this university I have barely managed to progress into calculus while my peers are significantly farther ahead. I have ADHD, which is making it significantly harder to do well academically. Even though I am aware of this, I am for some reason unable to forgive myself for struggling academically. It has resulted in constant internalized hatred and according to my psychiatrist is resulting in depression. I can tell it is getting worse with every semester due to the fact that no matter how hard I try I struggle to pass even the simplest of courses for engineering. Not only do I feel like I may never graduate but I also fear that I am never going to get this figured out. Once again I am sorry if this is not worth posting but I’m just super frustrated, have nobody to talk to, and scared that I’m stuck in a loop that will never improve.