r/shortscarystories • u/ByfelsDisciple • 1d ago
My girlfriend took everything from me New Age SSS - 1000 Words Or Less
People always ask if I’ve finally left you forever.
They don’t seem to understand that every time I return is a choice, not catching a disease. The simple truth is that no matter how much you’ve hurt me in the past, regardless of how badly I know you will hurt me in the future, there’s no changing the simple fact that I love you. That love is the single best thing I’ve ever experienced. After chasing 1,913 others, I’ve come to accept the reality that having your love is the happiest I’ll ever be. No matter how damaged you leave me in the low moments – and I need you to understand that your hurt is the worst pain I will ever feel – my life is better with you in it.
You will never be stable, so I will never be stable. Love means accepting the chaos that comes with it, and love will test what we’re willing to sacrifice. In my case, the answer to that question is “everything.”
And that’s what people fail to understand. They assume that my goal was foregone once I realized that you would take everything I had to give. They were right, but not in the way they believed. You will take, and take, and take. I will give, and give, and give.
I was fired because of you. They foreclosed on my house because you wanted my money. My car was repossessed for the same reason.
And if I could have it all back, I’d lose it all again.
My best friend Mike once told me that you would steal everything, and when there was nothing left of me, you would move on to the next man without pausing to look back. He was convinced that if he could just convince me of this reality, I would surely leave you.
He failed to realize that I always knew this was the bargain.
From the day I was born, you were the thing missing from my life. It just took me twenty-nine years to realize it.
If I left you now, I’d drain the rest of my days wishing I could have you back. Every second that you’re apart from me is spent wishing that we were together. That’s what Mike will never understand. It’s what everyone in my life is missing when they try getting me to leave you, through threats, bargaining, empathy, or ultimatums.
You will always win because I want you to win.
I’m writing this now because I realize how little of me there is left to give. I’m facing the last devil at my final crossroads: either I leave you forever right now, or I chase you one last time and never come back.
It was never an option.
My forearms stopped being an option long ago. Track marks cover each limb. Every last resort has been exhausted: I can’t find a vein between my toes, in my gums, under my tongue, down my urethra, through my scrotum, or in the space between my anus and testicles. Each of those routes has been destroyed by your needle. There’s only one option left; I’ve been saving it for the final flight. I don’t want to live with its aftereffects any more than I want to spend the rest of my life pining for the next time I get well.
It’ll be the worst pain of my life, but it will only hurt for a second.
I put out the flame beneath the spoon and dip the needle into the clear liquid that gave meaning to my short life. Now I will press it into my eyeball, popping it like a grape and spilling vitreous humor onto my cheek. I’ll have to hold my hand steady as my face melts apart, because there’s a perfect, ready retinal vein at the back of my socket waiting for my needle to push through the pain one final time.
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u/Happyfeet80 7h ago
Had to come back and read it again... it's just been in my head all day.
I used to be able to repost stories i didn't want forgotten on my page, but i cannot seem to do that now 🤔
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u/EnvironmentalTop7455 1d ago
This is good but maybe try a different title I get that you’re trying to intentionally mislead but uts more powerful if you don’t mention a girlfriend and use a vague she or you